Hello One & All!
I hope all is well.
For some of you who don't know me, I have been out of a job for so long since I have been in community college. I have earned my associates degree in social work back in 2013. Afterward, I have transferred to a 4 year private college, changed majors from social work to psychology and will be earning my bachelors degree in psychology in May 2017. However, I do work-study when school's in session and I have been working on campus since 2014. The pay isn't much but at least the money goes towards gas, lunch and anything else I need, can't complain sounds good, right? Yes and No. I say yes because I mentioned that the money covers gas, lunch and other necessities, however, I say no because when the school year's up, no one is on campus and I can't work on campus over the summer, so I have to get a job outside of school until school starts back up again.
Over the weekend, I just broke down. I broke down not because I don't have a job, there are other factors and dynamics that are going on as well which made me broke down. So, I called my best cousin and told her what was going on and she said that she's going to come visit me and she did visit me yesterday. We went to a few shopping strips and I filled out a few applications. I was told that a manager or a supervisor will contact me within a week or so from the stores I've applied to. Later, my cousin pulled up to a hotel to see if there are any job opportunities that are available for me. So, we walked into the lobby and the receptionist greeted me while my cousin sat down. I asked the receptionist if there are any job opportunities and she said yes and they're looking for a breakfast attendant (and for those who don't know, a breakfast attendant is someone who replenishes food for hotel guests and cleans). She handed me an application to fill out and I handed it back to her and waited while she and the manager went over the application and talked.
Next, the manager told me that I'm hired!!! I was so excited when she told me that. Although she said that she's looking for someone to work 2 days a week, I accepted the job. She told me to come in for training this week and I will be working from this Friday. My cousin was happy to hear that I got the job. At least it's better than doing nothing. After that, she took me to Chipotle for lunch and we went back to my house to hangout and catch up.
After she left, I was waiting on my dad to come home from my brother's house. I heard him coming in the house and he went straight to his room. I knocked on his door, and this was the conversation that happened:
Me: Hey Dad, guess what???
Dad: What???
Me: I got a job today!!!
Dad: Doing what??? You cleaning up dirty rooms???
Me: No!! I'm going to be working as a breakfast attendant.
Dad: Oh, you're going to be cleaning up behind people. You went to school for 4 years, have a degree, went back to school to get another degree and did all of that for what, working at a hotel? Which hotel are you working at?
Me: Milton Inn (Not a real hotel name)
Dad: F*** you!!! If you don't know what that means, then ask somebody what that means!!! You busted your hump at school just to work at a hotel!!! How much are you getting paid?
Me: Hourly wage.
Dad: Get out! Get out of my room!!!
*Pushes me out of his room, slams his door*
From there, I was so upset. I could not believe that my dad would react that way. That was the most unexpected reaction I have ever encountered from my dad. I wanted to call my cousin so bad to tell her what he said, but I couldn't because my eyes were filled with so much water that I could cause a flood in my house lol. As of right now, I'm still in shock. I waited for him to leave for work so that I can go out, get something to eat and clear my mind.
The way my dad reacted made me feel like I'm useless and hopeless. Sometimes, I wish my mom stayed with me a little bit longer so that she can hold my hand and guide me. Why did she have to pass away and leave me with so much drama and negativity to follow me, especially with my father reacting to my news like an jacka**??? I feel so horrible.
Until then,
Stay Blessed.
I hope all is well.
For some of you who don't know me, I have been out of a job for so long since I have been in community college. I have earned my associates degree in social work back in 2013. Afterward, I have transferred to a 4 year private college, changed majors from social work to psychology and will be earning my bachelors degree in psychology in May 2017. However, I do work-study when school's in session and I have been working on campus since 2014. The pay isn't much but at least the money goes towards gas, lunch and anything else I need, can't complain sounds good, right? Yes and No. I say yes because I mentioned that the money covers gas, lunch and other necessities, however, I say no because when the school year's up, no one is on campus and I can't work on campus over the summer, so I have to get a job outside of school until school starts back up again.
Over the weekend, I just broke down. I broke down not because I don't have a job, there are other factors and dynamics that are going on as well which made me broke down. So, I called my best cousin and told her what was going on and she said that she's going to come visit me and she did visit me yesterday. We went to a few shopping strips and I filled out a few applications. I was told that a manager or a supervisor will contact me within a week or so from the stores I've applied to. Later, my cousin pulled up to a hotel to see if there are any job opportunities that are available for me. So, we walked into the lobby and the receptionist greeted me while my cousin sat down. I asked the receptionist if there are any job opportunities and she said yes and they're looking for a breakfast attendant (and for those who don't know, a breakfast attendant is someone who replenishes food for hotel guests and cleans). She handed me an application to fill out and I handed it back to her and waited while she and the manager went over the application and talked.
Next, the manager told me that I'm hired!!! I was so excited when she told me that. Although she said that she's looking for someone to work 2 days a week, I accepted the job. She told me to come in for training this week and I will be working from this Friday. My cousin was happy to hear that I got the job. At least it's better than doing nothing. After that, she took me to Chipotle for lunch and we went back to my house to hangout and catch up.
After she left, I was waiting on my dad to come home from my brother's house. I heard him coming in the house and he went straight to his room. I knocked on his door, and this was the conversation that happened:
Me: Hey Dad, guess what???
Dad: What???
Me: I got a job today!!!
Dad: Doing what??? You cleaning up dirty rooms???
Me: No!! I'm going to be working as a breakfast attendant.
Dad: Oh, you're going to be cleaning up behind people. You went to school for 4 years, have a degree, went back to school to get another degree and did all of that for what, working at a hotel? Which hotel are you working at?
Me: Milton Inn (Not a real hotel name)
Dad: F*** you!!! If you don't know what that means, then ask somebody what that means!!! You busted your hump at school just to work at a hotel!!! How much are you getting paid?
Me: Hourly wage.
Dad: Get out! Get out of my room!!!
*Pushes me out of his room, slams his door*
From there, I was so upset. I could not believe that my dad would react that way. That was the most unexpected reaction I have ever encountered from my dad. I wanted to call my cousin so bad to tell her what he said, but I couldn't because my eyes were filled with so much water that I could cause a flood in my house lol. As of right now, I'm still in shock. I waited for him to leave for work so that I can go out, get something to eat and clear my mind.
The way my dad reacted made me feel like I'm useless and hopeless. Sometimes, I wish my mom stayed with me a little bit longer so that she can hold my hand and guide me. Why did she have to pass away and leave me with so much drama and negativity to follow me, especially with my father reacting to my news like an jacka**??? I feel so horrible.
Until then,
Stay Blessed.
