Seems I get closer to God when I break up with an ex boyfriend. And then when I feel better I'm back to the same worldly ways. I'm done with taking steps back!. I'm constantly seeking to be consoled and filled by a partner, but it's like trying to put the wrong puzzle piece in my soul when it's clearly outlined as God. It won't fit!! I'm sitting on my bed, reading the bible and just begging to be filled by God. I feel empty it hurts. I can be next to someone right now, be hugged or have sex but I will be be empty. I want you Lord!.. I thirst for you!! I want your living water!! You are my missing puzzle piece. Nothing in this world could ever replace you! I feel so bi polar these days.. I'm trying so hard rely on you, and I find myself happy and sining along to christian songs and then in other moments I'm crying my eyes out.
One friend. girl or male.. God someone who loves you like I do. That I can pray with and talk to about your church. How long will I have to cry and feel this way before you grant me your peace.
One friend. girl or male.. God someone who loves you like I do. That I can pray with and talk to about your church. How long will I have to cry and feel this way before you grant me your peace.
