Dear Dad,
Something I'm proud of. Something I never ever though that would make me feel good. Was the amount of effort I have put into you. I have lived my life thinking I'm never good enough and never will be. I've destroyed who I am because I'd rather drown my feelings then disappoint you more. No, I know I'm not a disappointment. I'm already that to my mother and probably my father too. I've always looked to you as my real dad, the one who was always there and still is. Isn't that crazy? I hope it isn't. Now, I want to share some of the things I am proud of. And yes, this may be considered bragging, but for once in my life, I'm going to make a post about my selfishness. And take pride in it. I have no shame about this. And I know you know why I'm doing this.
-I'm 21 now, I've decided to live my life this long and have decided to live my life every day thus far. Yes, I have suicidal thoughts and am still working on that daily. But to this day, I've decided to live.
-I am living my life and am happy.
-I still am on this darn website! I've been tempted to delete it, but I'm glad I haven't. I have met amazing people here, and I've discovered the people here have helped me in my life so much! So much more then people I see in person. P.S. Thank you Micheal, Seth, Addison, CJ, Max, and Nate. I don't know if anyone are here anymore or even snoop on my page, but you all have helped me in so many ways. And I am thankful for the friendship we have continued to build outside of CC. Heck, I talk to some of you on the phone and even have plans to meet in person. You all mean so much to me. And I think I deserve a gold star for being a member for almost 5 years! I'm not that dedicated to anything. Oh, and I have 38, now 39 post. It's taken a long time to reach that, but that makes me so happy. So happy I am able to share my life with other people.
-I'm going to graduate college next spring.
-I'm taking care of myself. For once.
I'm stopping here because I'm not sure what else life will bring me. I hope to engage in this blog more and more. I hope to share my life more and more, and consult with fellow followers of You. Thank you for bringing this to my life. It is something I am proud of. It is something that I find comfort in. Thank you.
Love,
Me. <3
Something I'm proud of. Something I never ever though that would make me feel good. Was the amount of effort I have put into you. I have lived my life thinking I'm never good enough and never will be. I've destroyed who I am because I'd rather drown my feelings then disappoint you more. No, I know I'm not a disappointment. I'm already that to my mother and probably my father too. I've always looked to you as my real dad, the one who was always there and still is. Isn't that crazy? I hope it isn't. Now, I want to share some of the things I am proud of. And yes, this may be considered bragging, but for once in my life, I'm going to make a post about my selfishness. And take pride in it. I have no shame about this. And I know you know why I'm doing this.
-I'm 21 now, I've decided to live my life this long and have decided to live my life every day thus far. Yes, I have suicidal thoughts and am still working on that daily. But to this day, I've decided to live.
-I am living my life and am happy.
-I still am on this darn website! I've been tempted to delete it, but I'm glad I haven't. I have met amazing people here, and I've discovered the people here have helped me in my life so much! So much more then people I see in person. P.S. Thank you Micheal, Seth, Addison, CJ, Max, and Nate. I don't know if anyone are here anymore or even snoop on my page, but you all have helped me in so many ways. And I am thankful for the friendship we have continued to build outside of CC. Heck, I talk to some of you on the phone and even have plans to meet in person. You all mean so much to me. And I think I deserve a gold star for being a member for almost 5 years! I'm not that dedicated to anything. Oh, and I have 38, now 39 post. It's taken a long time to reach that, but that makes me so happy. So happy I am able to share my life with other people.
-I'm going to graduate college next spring.
-I'm taking care of myself. For once.
I'm stopping here because I'm not sure what else life will bring me. I hope to engage in this blog more and more. I hope to share my life more and more, and consult with fellow followers of You. Thank you for bringing this to my life. It is something I am proud of. It is something that I find comfort in. Thank you.
Love,
Me. <3