Dear God,
Things arn't looking good, I've made a mess inside of me. I'm hating myself these days. Will you please help me?
-Hate. Me. Not you. Myself.-
What is right and what is wrong,
do you realize the sins you make?
You know in the depth of your heart that's wrong,
so why not stop it and make it right?
Why would you continue to live that life,
who care's enough to just be a sacrifice?
There's not turning back from the mistakes in the past, you loved, and laughed; but made scars that will last.
Stop being a fool and realize what you did,
ask for forgiveness and repent from your sin!
You are dumbfounded, idiotic, and a liar,
want to be labeled as a sinner?
We all are one, but it's take a true person of shame to realize what they did wasn't part of the game.
Don't listen to society, it's a sin itself. Trust in what you know, and save yourself.
You can't do this on your own, it's completely impossible.
Fall down and cry, Abba, this is all too indescribable.
Pain, the guilt, the hate, this life. Deep down I'm just a demon inside. Save me from my soul, myself.
I don't want this anymore, I don't want this sin anymore, this evil, I don't want it anymore.
What is right in this life,
why is it so hard to overcome what's wrong?
We are humans,
why is this so hard?
Is it right to give up,
or so wrong that someone may not love you?
How much more can I take,
before I hate myself all the way to the grave?
You have written my plan, and know every detail. Right now I just wish I knew where I'll go. What are you planning on doing with me, is it something crazy? I'm scared of what is to come. Lord my God, are you sure someone else can't be the chosen one? What's so amazing about me? I'm just this person whom you made to be.
Answers is all I'm praying for. I'm so lost in myself, in my mind, that I can't keep looking forward.
Things arn't looking good, I've made a mess inside of me. I'm hating myself these days. Will you please help me?
-Hate. Me. Not you. Myself.-
What is right and what is wrong,
do you realize the sins you make?
You know in the depth of your heart that's wrong,
so why not stop it and make it right?
Why would you continue to live that life,
who care's enough to just be a sacrifice?
There's not turning back from the mistakes in the past, you loved, and laughed; but made scars that will last.
Stop being a fool and realize what you did,
ask for forgiveness and repent from your sin!
You are dumbfounded, idiotic, and a liar,
want to be labeled as a sinner?
We all are one, but it's take a true person of shame to realize what they did wasn't part of the game.
Don't listen to society, it's a sin itself. Trust in what you know, and save yourself.
You can't do this on your own, it's completely impossible.
Fall down and cry, Abba, this is all too indescribable.
Pain, the guilt, the hate, this life. Deep down I'm just a demon inside. Save me from my soul, myself.
I don't want this anymore, I don't want this sin anymore, this evil, I don't want it anymore.
What is right in this life,
why is it so hard to overcome what's wrong?
We are humans,
why is this so hard?
Is it right to give up,
or so wrong that someone may not love you?
How much more can I take,
before I hate myself all the way to the grave?
You have written my plan, and know every detail. Right now I just wish I knew where I'll go. What are you planning on doing with me, is it something crazy? I'm scared of what is to come. Lord my God, are you sure someone else can't be the chosen one? What's so amazing about me? I'm just this person whom you made to be.
Answers is all I'm praying for. I'm so lost in myself, in my mind, that I can't keep looking forward.
Thinking of you with compassion cos i know it ain't easy. So i put my mind on the Glorious Day to come & turn my ear to Heaven's Praises. I say to Him, really Jesus, me a sinner am going to partake in the Praises - but i don't think i'm good enough - HE says yes true but I am good and my Grace is sufficient for you! And so i partake in HIS sufferings gladly since I know I will also be led to HIS Glory. I hate myself, hate living in my flesh but i look forward to HIM changing me (1 Corinthians 15) and i am trying to let Jesus simply Love me. It's a bit foreign to me to be loved so much, i keep making excuses that i'm not worth it. So HE says, come with me to a quiet place and rest a while... one day it occurred to me, i can never really be lost now HE has covered me with HIS Precious Blood... I feel lost but HE is the MIGHTY GOD, Immanuel, Prince of Peace, Everlasting Father, Wonderful, Counsellor - He can find us but i learned to try not to stray to far from my Good Shepherd, i am learning to hold HIS hand all the way home to Eternal Life with HIM. Hold on sister. THANKYOU for being such a Blessing to me and making me feel like i'm not alone in the good fight.