Dear God,
What do I even say anymore? What do I even do? Where do I even begin? Because of some real life experiences and challenges, I've been angry and confused. I don't want to know what other people will say. I do not want to hear them preaching at me. Sometimes I wish I could just sit in front of you and and let you judge me now instead of later. I've made mistakes. I've made a lot of mistakes, but some of them I'm not ashamed of. And that's what is killing me most. I'm not sorry for some of the things I've done and I can't decided if that what makes me human... or not. I have daddy issues and you know that. And for once in my life I wish I didn't screw something up for me that's good. I understand my actions are not pleasing, but some of them have taught me well. I'm sorry to disappoint you. I'm sorry that the one chance I had at having a 'dad' figure went to crap so fast. I miss you and I already know you forgive me... but I'm not sure I'll ever want to forgive my self.
-Your daughter
What do I even say anymore? What do I even do? Where do I even begin? Because of some real life experiences and challenges, I've been angry and confused. I don't want to know what other people will say. I do not want to hear them preaching at me. Sometimes I wish I could just sit in front of you and and let you judge me now instead of later. I've made mistakes. I've made a lot of mistakes, but some of them I'm not ashamed of. And that's what is killing me most. I'm not sorry for some of the things I've done and I can't decided if that what makes me human... or not. I have daddy issues and you know that. And for once in my life I wish I didn't screw something up for me that's good. I understand my actions are not pleasing, but some of them have taught me well. I'm sorry to disappoint you. I'm sorry that the one chance I had at having a 'dad' figure went to crap so fast. I miss you and I already know you forgive me... but I'm not sure I'll ever want to forgive my self.
-Your daughter