OK, let's clarify some things. Before I met him I had an active Christian life, church, bible study. However, he is very busy and showed no interest in joining me in these activities. To make time for us, I stopped going to church and other activties while still pursuing my relationship to God through other areas. It was clear we are getting married. Our relationship which is cross cultural was very much inbalanced, with me giving and him receiving. There are a lot of challenges in our relationship but we used to manage them well. I am just not sure what place he is in now. he says he has to put htings right, he knows what to do to make things right before God. That sounds like living under the law and not in the spirit. He says he doesn't need anybody in his life apart from God. A relationship should't be work..But also the relationship to God requires work! I brought everything before God and reconnected with him. I told the truth about everything even to my boss which could have cost me my job. I am glad i have taken these steps and ashamed I pushed God out of my life. I don't want our old relationship back. A lot will need to change and God needs to be in the center. How wonderful that could be. As for my fiance, I think he is very confused right now. he tells me he misses me. He looks at the rings that were supposed to be our wedding rings. But then again he says he is happy with God and I can see the pain in his eyes. By the way, he broke up via text messge and refused to see me for two weeks. It seems he has a measure in how long it takes for somebody to reconnect to God. But reconnection happens instantly I bring everything before him and ask for forgiveness. Growing a relationship with him is a different thing and that is taking every day of my life! of course I want him back because I believe we had a good relationship and with Gods guidance it can even be a better one. At the same time I am strengthening my relationship to God again. But not because of him, because of me. We don't have any contact right now so I wouldn't have to do that if it wouldn't be for me and God.