This may seem like a slam dunk of a question for people who believe in God; an all loving creator that made mankind in his image. But it's something that's bothered me intensely for years of my life.
Perhaps I'm at a stage of simple questioning, but then I have been for years. I've looked at the evidence that permeates through the lives people live, for a hint of a love as described by our creator. The thing is, I've never gotten a definitive yes.
I see people who proclaim love; husbands, wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, mothers, fathers, even myself. But I also see conditions, and people who have had more than one partner, and people whom it took someone to come along who filled the right conditions in order for there to exist something worthy to call 'love'.
And I often wonder, is that all it is in practicality? Someone who fills the right conditions or expectations?
A son who does his father proud is loved. But a son who lets his father down is looked upon without favour and often without affection.
A wife who is loyal and beautiful is adored by her husband, but a wife who has let herself go and who has lost her charm is often looked upon as a distraction.
A husband who is manly and upright is respected and looked up to by his wife, but a man who loses his edge and his strength becomes no longer worthy to be called a man.
A daughter who is spoken of nicely by the neighbours and has a good reputation makes her mother feel valid and without regret, but a daughter who makes mistakes or falls into bad habits leaves her mother disgusted and resentful.
A son whose father is behind him gives his son a manly strength and steel confidence, but a father who berates his son makes his son angry and conflicted.
I often wonder about these things.
I can't really say that after the ages of 14 or 15, that I ever had any of these positive relationships or saw much of them portrayed around my daily life, and as much as i try to remain neutral and make the right choices rather than the biased ones, I've come to a point where I desire these positive interactions in my life.
Has anyone else experienced this; coming to a point where the world seems so reliant on you to meet conditions? And you just want to say 'no'?
I spend so much of my life having good intentions and never being seen for them.
Perhaps I'm at a stage of simple questioning, but then I have been for years. I've looked at the evidence that permeates through the lives people live, for a hint of a love as described by our creator. The thing is, I've never gotten a definitive yes.
I see people who proclaim love; husbands, wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, mothers, fathers, even myself. But I also see conditions, and people who have had more than one partner, and people whom it took someone to come along who filled the right conditions in order for there to exist something worthy to call 'love'.
And I often wonder, is that all it is in practicality? Someone who fills the right conditions or expectations?
A son who does his father proud is loved. But a son who lets his father down is looked upon without favour and often without affection.
A wife who is loyal and beautiful is adored by her husband, but a wife who has let herself go and who has lost her charm is often looked upon as a distraction.
A husband who is manly and upright is respected and looked up to by his wife, but a man who loses his edge and his strength becomes no longer worthy to be called a man.
A daughter who is spoken of nicely by the neighbours and has a good reputation makes her mother feel valid and without regret, but a daughter who makes mistakes or falls into bad habits leaves her mother disgusted and resentful.
A son whose father is behind him gives his son a manly strength and steel confidence, but a father who berates his son makes his son angry and conflicted.
I often wonder about these things.
I can't really say that after the ages of 14 or 15, that I ever had any of these positive relationships or saw much of them portrayed around my daily life, and as much as i try to remain neutral and make the right choices rather than the biased ones, I've come to a point where I desire these positive interactions in my life.
Has anyone else experienced this; coming to a point where the world seems so reliant on you to meet conditions? And you just want to say 'no'?
I spend so much of my life having good intentions and never being seen for them.
There is certainly some truth in the saying, what we give out, we recieve. If we are all doom and gloom, we will most probably attract and experience doom and gloom. It sounds like your glass is half empty? And that's a choice....you can choose to see life more optimistically 
