I need some help from good grounded Christians. I'm very confused and need some help..
In 2007 I dated a woman for two weeks. She cheated and ended up pregant. In 2008 she gave birth to a beautiful boy named braedon. I had a paternity test done and the child was mine. But she didn't want to be together so I just see my son every second weekend. In 2009 I dated another woman. She turned out to be a very selfish person and only cared about one thing. And that's how much money I made. We ended up breaking up and a month later she called to tell me she was pregnant. Even though she was with another man she told me it was mine but she never wanted me to see the child. I fought in court and tried to see him despite what court said she doesn't allow me to see the child..
All I've ever wanted was a family and to be a father .. A few years went by now it's 2015. I just became a born again Christian and started following God. Learning about him and reading the bible on a daily basis.. Everything has been going extremely well for me. Meeting new people and new Christians and surounding myself with positivity. Considering last month I was contiplating suicide... A girlfriend and I dated in June and July and she ended up wanting to move closer to family to a different province. So sadly we broke up. That's when I turned to God. Just sick of the journey on my own I wanted gods help and for Jesus to live in me and for me to be a better person. Well 2 days ago my girlfriend that moved away called me and told me she is pregant with my child and wants to make a family. She is not a Christian but believes in a higher power.
My question is. Do I try to make this family work and move to where she's living to make this family work and see less of my first born son, who I've grown very close with.. Or do I stay with the Christians that brought me into their home and stay around my first born son and have my 3rd child be born in a different province and not see much of him/her and have yet another broken family..
Do I go for a chance at a family or do I stay where I am and have my third child and barely see them? Please help. If there are any question or if you're confused by my story. Please message me. I'll explain better. But I'm looking for what's my best choice as a Christian.
