Three years later and I'm back again. There may still be some of you who might remember me from that long ago, and it was with the help of this forum that my journey began.
Since then, my wife left me, leaving my kids with me, I met someone new, who "I thought" was very Christian (I'll come back to that), I moved to a new place, joined a men's group at the local church, which has played a huge part in trying to keep me grounded and again I feel my life spiraling out of control.
Difference is I know that I'm on a different spiritual level than I was three years ago. I am now very much aware that there is a spiritual warfare going on in my life, and here's my problem.
First, the woman that I met, thinking that she was very Christian, also dabbles in the occult .. Very rarely will she practice it, but once in awhile she'll pull out tarot cards and fool around with them with her close friends. She believes in earthly gods and goddess', but yet when the going gets tough, I see her on her knees praying to The One and Only. She feels the need to attend church and chastises me for not going, but yet she has a while library of witchcraft books and paraphernalia including a Ouija board.
I attended a men's retreat, hosted by the church a few months back, and that's when it was brought to my attention the the occult is a big no no. Before that, I thought it was just a 'cute' thing that she was into.
The reason I had to give some background in that is because I feel there is a demonic presence in our home. Me and her get along better than than two human beings should be allowed to get along ... When we get along ... But then a dark force comes over her, and I swear she's possessed, from swearing, to throwing things around, slamming doors, running the car into the house, it's absolutely mind boggling. Then the darkness clears, communication opens up, and there's no way that person is the same person again.
I don't want to put all the blame on her because I know that I am also responsible for allowing Satan into our home. With a lot of shame, I admit to also being tempted with something that is lgbt related. She is aware of those temptations, and I have tried to cleanse myself of them, only to have them creep up on me time and time again.
I guess the bottom line here is, I feel like I have fallen from God's grace until I have resolved this warfare. I know that none of the above is right as many of you will want to tell me, but maybe if I can get a few prayers for strength to defeat the enemy, it may be a start .. Alone, I don't believe I have the strength.
Since then, my wife left me, leaving my kids with me, I met someone new, who "I thought" was very Christian (I'll come back to that), I moved to a new place, joined a men's group at the local church, which has played a huge part in trying to keep me grounded and again I feel my life spiraling out of control.
Difference is I know that I'm on a different spiritual level than I was three years ago. I am now very much aware that there is a spiritual warfare going on in my life, and here's my problem.
First, the woman that I met, thinking that she was very Christian, also dabbles in the occult .. Very rarely will she practice it, but once in awhile she'll pull out tarot cards and fool around with them with her close friends. She believes in earthly gods and goddess', but yet when the going gets tough, I see her on her knees praying to The One and Only. She feels the need to attend church and chastises me for not going, but yet she has a while library of witchcraft books and paraphernalia including a Ouija board.
I attended a men's retreat, hosted by the church a few months back, and that's when it was brought to my attention the the occult is a big no no. Before that, I thought it was just a 'cute' thing that she was into.
The reason I had to give some background in that is because I feel there is a demonic presence in our home. Me and her get along better than than two human beings should be allowed to get along ... When we get along ... But then a dark force comes over her, and I swear she's possessed, from swearing, to throwing things around, slamming doors, running the car into the house, it's absolutely mind boggling. Then the darkness clears, communication opens up, and there's no way that person is the same person again.
I don't want to put all the blame on her because I know that I am also responsible for allowing Satan into our home. With a lot of shame, I admit to also being tempted with something that is lgbt related. She is aware of those temptations, and I have tried to cleanse myself of them, only to have them creep up on me time and time again.
I guess the bottom line here is, I feel like I have fallen from God's grace until I have resolved this warfare. I know that none of the above is right as many of you will want to tell me, but maybe if I can get a few prayers for strength to defeat the enemy, it may be a start .. Alone, I don't believe I have the strength.
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