Here's another one of my meanderings for the days trouble. Hope you don't mind.

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Mylady_D

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Mar 22, 2014
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Why

Why do I do this to myself?
Why open up when you know you'll be hurt?
Why get close to someone?
You'll not only hurt yourself but them as well.

Years before you didn't need anybody
Didn't need accepted, didn't need acknowledged, didn't need affection.
It was you and the Lord and that was all.
It was good.
Why do you need more now?

Years before you let nobody close.
You hid, nobody knew the true you save the Lord.
One was sent to you that was given sight to see through your walls.
You couldn't hide, though you tried.
You were pulled out, held close, loved for who you are.
You found out that more than just the Lord could love you and it freedyou.
Then that one was taken away. Why?
Because you couldn't be used if you are boxed up and sealed.

Now exposed...unprotected, vulnerable
The freedom you once had is now your undoing
It drives you. Why do you let it?
You know how to turn it off.
Do it...shut it down and close it back up.

Why is it so hard?
Why does it hurt so much?
Why do I need this?
Why...because I am human
Created to be a companion
Created to be social being
Created to love and be loved by others.
To not do so...is to live, die, and have no effect.
I might as well have not existed.

So why am I doing this to myself?
I have to walk the path the Lord has set before me.
I will suffer abuse, the Lord did
I will have my heart broken, the Lord did
I will do dumb and stupid things. Why?
Because I am NOT the Lord. I'm not like him....YET.