I wanted to send her "As Your Shadow" while we weren't talking and I had to find a way to release the bundled emotions I had for her without annoying her so I wrote another poem and kept it to myself.
Words are used as vessels of power
Misuse them and they will devour
I was once the man you trust
Now I'm nothing more than dust
I sought to be there and protect
Instead I practically erased our deck
I wanted to be that caring guy
But now.. you had to tell me good bye
It was my fault for being so ignorant
Talking as though your heart was transparent.
I made very brutal mistakes
Kept testing seeing how much you could take
Now my eyes are open and I see
What you really meant to me
I was careless, reckless with my words
And that's just the beginning of this lore
I didn't see your heavy pain.
I left you in the storming rain.
I should have loved you unconditional
Instead of being superficial
I wanted to be there for you
I want to be your dream come true
I messed this up so bad
One last chance is all I ask
One wrong word could break it all
How heart braking was our fall
I wish so bad to mend your pain
I don't want to go invane
I became an additional problem
When I wanted to solve them
Now I just want to be there
I want to show you I care
Your trust is worth more than gold
The yellow orb I wish to hold
You have been through yet so much
Your trust is something I cannot touch
Still I ask for one more chance
To be there for you through this trance
To regain your golden hopes and trust
Before our friendship turns to rust
You forgave and forgot on account of love
You sought the ways from above
I still hurt you time and time
Now I'm left to be remind
We know I didn't mean to hurt you
But it doesn't make it less true
Now I really really miss you
Seeing you again would be a wish come true
I have learned some painful lessons
Each bringing me to a new session
But one thing stands above all of us
And that's never again to lose your trust
I know that you don't want more pain
I don't want this to go invane
I will learn from my mistakes
I don't want to be someone you hate
I made honest mistakes.
I didn't mean for this to partake
I wanted to be someone you trust
I want to be there from dawn to dusk
Your heart was heavy your mind was full
I shouldn't have added to your pool
I wish I could take everything back
Then maybe you could trust me at last.
I won't let these mistakes go untouched
I will make changes so you can trust
I want to be that special gentleman
Because you are one wonderful woman
I ask you please just once last chance
I know I've hurt you again and again
I'm still learning to be a better man
Please once more may I have your hand?
Words are used as vessels of power
Misuse them and they will devour
I was once the man you trust
Now I'm nothing more than dust
I sought to be there and protect
Instead I practically erased our deck
I wanted to be that caring guy
But now.. you had to tell me good bye
It was my fault for being so ignorant
Talking as though your heart was transparent.
I made very brutal mistakes
Kept testing seeing how much you could take
Now my eyes are open and I see
What you really meant to me
I was careless, reckless with my words
And that's just the beginning of this lore
I didn't see your heavy pain.
I left you in the storming rain.
I should have loved you unconditional
Instead of being superficial
I wanted to be there for you
I want to be your dream come true
I messed this up so bad
One last chance is all I ask
One wrong word could break it all
How heart braking was our fall
I wish so bad to mend your pain
I don't want to go invane
I became an additional problem
When I wanted to solve them
Now I just want to be there
I want to show you I care
Your trust is worth more than gold
The yellow orb I wish to hold
You have been through yet so much
Your trust is something I cannot touch
Still I ask for one more chance
To be there for you through this trance
To regain your golden hopes and trust
Before our friendship turns to rust
You forgave and forgot on account of love
You sought the ways from above
I still hurt you time and time
Now I'm left to be remind
We know I didn't mean to hurt you
But it doesn't make it less true
Now I really really miss you
Seeing you again would be a wish come true
I have learned some painful lessons
Each bringing me to a new session
But one thing stands above all of us
And that's never again to lose your trust
I know that you don't want more pain
I don't want this to go invane
I will learn from my mistakes
I don't want to be someone you hate
I made honest mistakes.
I didn't mean for this to partake
I wanted to be someone you trust
I want to be there from dawn to dusk
Your heart was heavy your mind was full
I shouldn't have added to your pool
I wish I could take everything back
Then maybe you could trust me at last.
I won't let these mistakes go untouched
I will make changes so you can trust
I want to be that special gentleman
Because you are one wonderful woman
I ask you please just once last chance
I know I've hurt you again and again
I'm still learning to be a better man
Please once more may I have your hand?