Fairly rare, but I'm posting a thread.

[AsifinPassing]

Hey guys! ^^

So, I realize the singles thread always seems to be the most frequented, and topics appear and reappear from different people over the same things, but I really would just like to talk with you for a moment. You know, with, not to or at. (lol)

On that note, there are a few things I've had in my heart and on my mind for a while now. (granted, I always have things on my heart and mind, but specifically) *small sigh*

This will entail a lot, but I'll try to be brief as I don't want you to click on the title and go O_O...when the page loads.

To start with, confidence. Whatever your race, gender, custom, ext...everyone looks for confidence. That's easy enough to come by. Many moments make us feel confident. We can always be confident in Christ, and there are several other instances. The catch is, confidence in yourself.

Part of where I'm coming from can be explained by this song...http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=...54SXDg&usg=AFQjCNFfiFYjsIMf8aLYMQrvH6RVIZjbfg

See, I, like many, suffer from low self-esteem. I'm not always walking around with a rain cloud, but I am sometimes overtaken by fits of sadness or corrosion in my heart from my failures. All the same, I've always felt a deep, strong longing for someone to live my life with.

My past relationships have been rough, but they taught me a lot. I don't want to overwhelm you with text, so to super briefly sum it up, I've long been praying about and gradually surrendering it to God, but the desire seems potent as ever.

I learned the hard way not to just take anyone, but only the ones which God ordains, however, I often feel and have become of the persuasion that I don't deserve such a gift as a wife. She would be able to do so much better than me, and I wouldn't want to put my, for lack of a better term, junk on her or hurt the person I'm meant to love most.

In any case, what are your thoughts?

 

[GreenNnice]

Hey guys! ^^

So, I realize the singles thread always seems to be the most frequented, and topics appear and reappear from different people over the same things, but I really would just like to talk with you for a moment. You know, with, not to or at. (lol)

On that note, there are a few things I've had in my heart and on my mind for a while now. (granted, I always have things on my heart and mind, but specifically) *small sigh*

This will entail a lot, but I'll try to be brief as I don't want you to click on the title and go O_O...when the page loads.

To start with, confidence. Whatever your race, gender, custom, ext...everyone looks for confidence. That's easy enough to come by. Many moments make us feel confident. We can always be confident in Christ, and there are several other instances. The catch is, confidence in yourself.

Part of where I'm coming from can be explained by this song...http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=...54SXDg&usg=AFQjCNFfiFYjsIMf8aLYMQrvH6RVIZjbfg

See, I, like many, suffer from low self-esteem. I'm not always walking around with a rain cloud, but I am sometimes overtaken by fits of sadness or corrosion in my heart from my failures. All the same, I've always felt a deep, strong longing for someone to live my life with.

My past relationships have been rough, but they taught me a lot. I don't want to overwhelm you with text, so to super briefly sum it up, I've long been praying about and gradually surrendering it to God, but the desire seems potent as ever.

I learned the hard way not to just take anyone, but only the ones which God ordains, however, I often feel and have become of the persuasion that I don't deserve such a gift as a wife. She would be able to do so much better than me, and I wouldn't want to put my, for lack of a better term, junk on her or hurt the person I'm meant to love most.

In any case, what are your thoughts?

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Asif you have anything to worry about, as if. like no. noooo. u r a dog of a different fur , a bred apart, you are though like everyone , you, AsIf are a child of our King and you need not worry about your junk, 'cept to do your best with getting things handled as the Lord leads you. The Lord leads.

Anyway, yeah, AsIf, you are His and don't worry about a wife , just worry about going about your business, literally for you since you are studying 'it' in school , and, just , like , like, pay close attention to the pastor's sermons and bible studiesyou go to and that way you can keep a bead on God'sdirection. . maybe a wife is in your nea future. Let your desires be known, delight yourself in the Lord and He WILL give you the desires of your heart. Will give. Will give. it,s not 'might give'. Will.

and, lastly, speaking of confidence, I think that will come with believing that God has great plans that ARE tied to your desires, your good desires to glorify, and, confidence comes from.....

believing in ourselves believing that we can do what God had us made to dowhen we were born. He knew. Still knows. Keep following Him, AsIf. Your junk is NOTHING to worry about, you just go forward with it, asking God to help you get rid of it. God will then , because of your faith, dumo it from your life.

 

[GreenNnice]

Hey guys! ^^

So, I realize the singles thread always seems to be the most frequented, and topics appear and reappear from different people over the same things, but I really would just like to talk with you for a moment. You know, with, not to or at. (lol)

On that note, there are a few things I've had in my heart and on my mind for a while now. (granted, I always have things on my heart and mind, but specifically) *small sigh*

This will entail a lot, but I'll try to be brief as I don't want you to click on the title and go O_O...when the page loads.

To start with, confidence. Whatever your race, gender, custom, ext...everyone looks for confidence. That's easy enough to come by. Many moments make us feel confident. We can always be confident in Christ, and there are several other instances. The catch is, confidence in yourself.

Part of where I'm coming from can be explained by this song...http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=...54SXDg&usg=AFQjCNFfiFYjsIMf8aLYMQrvH6RVIZjbfg

See, I, like many, suffer from low self-esteem. I'm not always walking around with a rain cloud, but I am sometimes overtaken by fits of sadness or corrosion in my heart from my failures. All the same, I've always felt a deep, strong longing for someone to live my life with.

My past relationships have been rough, but they taught me a lot. I don't want to overwhelm you with text, so to super briefly sum it up, I've long been praying about and gradually surrendering it to God, but the desire seems potent as ever.

I learned the hard way not to just take anyone, but only the ones which God ordains, however, I often feel and have become of the persuasion that I don't deserve such a gift as a wife. She would be able to do so much better than me, and I wouldn't want to put my, for lack of a better term, junk on her or hurt the person I'm meant to love most.

In any case, what are your thoughts?

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Asif you have anything to worry about, as if. like no. noooo. u r a dog of a different fur , a bred apart, you are though like everyone , you, AsIf are a child of our King and you need not worry about your junk, 'cept to do your best with getting things handled as the Lord leads you. The Lord leads.

Anyway, yeah, AsIf, you are His and don't worry about a wife , just worry about going about your business, literally for you since you are studying 'it' in school , and, just , like , like, pay close attention to the pastor's sermons and bible studiesyou go to and that way you can keep a bead on God'sdirection. . maybe a wife is in your near future. Let your desires be known, delight yourself in the Lord and He WILL give you the desires of your heart. Will give. Will give.psalm 37:4 doesn't say 'might give'. Will give Us desires of our heart ' Will ..

and, lastly, speaking of confidence, I think that will come with believing that God has great plans that ARE tied to your desires, your good desires to glorify God, and, confidence comes from.....

believing in ourselves believing that we can do what God had us made to do when we were born. He knew. Still knows. Keep following Him, AsIf. Your junk is NOTHING to worry about, you just go forward with it, asking God to help you get rid of it. God will then , because of your faith, DUmp it from your life.

 

[AsifinPassing]

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Asif you have anything to worry about, as if. like no. noooo. u r a dog of a different fur , a bred apart, you are though like everyone , you, AsIf are a child of our King and you need not worry about your junk, 'cept to do your best with getting things handled as the Lord leads you. The Lord leads.

Anyway, yeah, AsIf, you are His and don't worry about a wife , just worry about going about your business, literally for you since you are studying 'it' in school , and, just , like , like, pay close attention to the pastor's sermons and bible studiesyou go to and that way you can keep a bead on God'sdirection. . maybe a wife is in your nea future. Let your desires be known, delight yourself in the Lord and He WILL give you the desires of your heart. Will give. Will give. it,s not 'might give'. Will.

and, lastly, speaking of confidence, I think that will come with believing that God has great plans that ARE tied to your desires, your good desires to glorify, and, confidence comes from.....

believing in ourselves believing that we can do what God had us made to dowhen we were born. He knew. Still knows. Keep following Him, AsIf. Your junk is NOTHING to worry about, you just go forward with it, asking God to help you get rid of it. God will then , because of your faith, dumo it from your life.

Thanks Green. My name's Reece, btw, but you can call me as you like. I'm pretty easy going...if you haven't figured that out.

I hear ya, man, but it's hard, ya know? ...keeps me up at night, among other things.

Though I am studying business, God's called me into the ministry, which I've loved. I never wanted to be a pastor when I was young, as my Father is a great one, but I'm happy to do whatever God wills.

All that aside (as if things in your life can really be separated...), we can get in the way of God's plans and work. That's part of the whole 'freedom' thing. I certainly don't want to do that. However, in this case, I'm not like Paul. The desire for a woman to become one flesh with only grows stronger as I get older.

I'm not really looking. I've learned that to find the right person, you have to be the right person, but then...none of us are perfect. It's just complicated and painful sometimes, ya know?

 

[AsifinPassing]

(sorry for the double post...)

Sixty views and only my buddy Green replied. Ouch...lol.

 

[zeroturbulence]

(sorry for the double post...)

Sixty views and only my buddy Green replied. Ouch...lol.

I read your post three times and still am not clear on what you want help with. Maybe you could reword it or shorten it.

 

[AsifinPassing]

I read your post three times and still am not clear on what you want help with. Maybe you could reword it or shorten it.

Hey guys! ^^

So, I realize the singles thread always seems to be the most frequented, and topics appear and reappear from different people over the same things, but I really would just like to talk with you for a moment. You know, with, not to or at. (lol)

On that note, there are a few things I've had in my heart and on my mind for a while now. (granted, I always have things on my heart and mind, but specifically) *small sigh*

This will entail a lot, but I'll try to be brief as I don't want you to click on the title and go O_O...when the page loads.

To start with, confidence. Whatever your race, gender, custom, ext...everyone looks for confidence. That's easy enough to come by. Many moments make us feel confident. We can always be confident in Christ, and there are several other instances. The catch is, confidence in yourself.

Part of where I'm coming from can be explained by this song...http://www.google.com/url?sa=t&rct=...54SXDg&usg=AFQjCNFfiFYjsIMf8aLYMQrvH6RVIZjbfg

See, I, like many, suffer from low self-esteem. I'm not always walking around with a rain cloud, but I am sometimes overtaken by fits of sadness or corrosion in my heart from my failures. All the same, I've always felt a deep, strong longing for someone to live my life with.

My past relationships have been rough, but they taught me a lot. I don't want to overwhelm you with text, so to super briefly sum it up, I've long been praying about and gradually surrendering it to God, but the desire seems potent as ever.

I learned the hard way not to just take anyone, but only the ones which God ordains, however, I often feel and have become of the persuasion that I don't deserve such a gift as a wife. She would be able to do so much better than me, and I wouldn't want to put my, for lack of a better term, junk on her or hurt the person I'm meant to love most.

In any case, what are your thoughts?

...just to emphasize a few...

I read your post three times and still am not clear on what you want help with. Maybe you could reword it or shorten it.

Thanks Green. My name's Reece, btw, but you can call me as you like. I'm pretty easy going...if you haven't figured that out.

I hear ya, man, but it's hard, ya know? ...keeps me up at night, among other things.

Though I am studying business, God's called me into the ministry, which I've loved. I never wanted to be a pastor when I was young, as my Father is a great one, but I'm happy to do whatever God wills.

All that aside (as if things in your life can really be separated...), we can get in the way of God's plans and work. That's part of the whole 'freedom' thing. I certainly don't want to do that. However, in this case, I'm not like Paul. The desire for a woman to become one flesh with only grows stronger as I get older.

I'm not really looking. I've learned that to find the right person, you have to be the right person, but then...none of us are perfect. It's just complicated and painful sometimes, ya know?

...and a few more...your thoughts on this?

 

[Relena7]

Gotta learn to love yourself as much as you love your loved ones and family. Treat yourself with kindness and you'll become more confident.

God will heal you of your low confidence if you ARE willing to let go of the problems. I know it sounds odd, but yes, it's actually possible to deep down be attached to our problems and fears. Fears are cozy, and protect us from venturing into the unknown of being free (I know cause I struggle with this...). Let them go, and give it all to God. Have faith.

 

[AsifinPassing]

Gotta learn to love yourself as much as you love your loved ones and family. Treat yourself with kindness and you'll become more confident.

God will heal you of your low confidence if you ARE willing to let go of the problems. I know it sounds odd, but yes, it's actually possible to deep down be attached to our problems and fears. Fears are cozy, and protect us from venturing into the unknown of being free (I know cause I struggle with this...). Let them go, and give it all to God. Have faith.

Thank you, Relena. I do have faith, and pray that God will increase it all the more. A part of me wants to let it go, move on, and grow, but another part of me seems unable to. SO, no...it didn't sound odd.

I mean this in a the sincerest way. Several of my close friends and family have told me that I'm a complicated person. I think deeply and constantly, and I feel things maybe a bit more strongly than the average man. I don't know that I'm necessarily trying to 'get' anything out of this, but relationships are important.

I want to know your views, thoughts, feelings, and want you to know mine. I've posted this because I tend to be freely open when asked, but reserved and deliberately isolated otherwise. Once again, I don't want to write a book here, but this is an intense day to day (night to night) struggle.

Once again, thank you Relena. I pray that something will change in this as God wills in His time.

 

[Relena7]

Thank you, Relena. I do have faith, and pray that God will increase it all the more. A part of me wants to let it go, move on, and grow, but another part of me seems unable to. SO, no...it didn't sound odd.

I mean this in a the sincerest way. Several of my close friends and family have told me that I'm a complicated person. I think deeply and constantly, and I feel things maybe a bit more strongly than the average man. I don't know that I'm necessarily trying to 'get' anything out of this, but relationships are important.

I want to know your views, thoughts, feelings, and want you to know mine. I've posted this because I tend to be freely open when asked, but reserved and deliberately isolated otherwise. Once again, I don't want to write a book here, but this is an intense day to day (night to night) struggle.

Once again, thank you Relena. I pray that something will change in this as God wills in His time.

Off-topic, but you sound so much like me, it's scary.

 

[AsifinPassing]

Off-topic, but you sound so much like me, it's scary.

Oh good! I'm glad I'm not alone, lol. (I mean, not that anyone is, as God is with us...)

Well, if you like yourself, maybe we can be friends! =3 *if you follow me* lol

 

[GreenNnice]

Gotta learn to love yourself as much as you love your loved ones and family. Treat yourself with kindness and you'll become more confident.

God will heal you of your low confidence if you ARE willing to let go of the problems. I know it sounds odd, but yes, it's actually possible to deep down be attached to our problems and fears. Fears are cozy, and protect us from venturing into the unknown of being free (I know cause I struggle with this...). Let them go, and give it all to God. Have faith.

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Yes, I apologize for the double post too, unintentional, just wanted one post, edited, but typing on a MyTouch 4G a lot of chatting affects my communication...

Yes, Relena (your name reminds me of Selena, beautiful voice, died way too young, tragically, too), well said, I love the Titanic movie for all the good moments of inspiration, includng my favorite part where Jack and Rose are on the bed, floating in the middle of the Atlantic.

Rose has nearly fallen asleep, shivering, as Jack goes to wake her up, for if she falls asleep there's little doubt she would ever wake up again in this kind of cold, not to mention, dead of night situation, no one around. Jack, too, tried to get on the bed frame but it began to sink, so he got off and stayed clinging to the frame and in the icy cold waters.

Jack: Rose. Rose! Rose! Wake up! Wake up!
Rose: What. Huh? (groggy)
Jack: Rose, you mustn't fall asleep.
Rose: ok, Jack. (And she begins to fall asleep again).
Jack: Rose! Rose, Rose!!!
Rose: Huh.
Jack: Rose, you must promise me that you will never let go. Y-y-you (shivering) have a lot of living left to do. You are going to have a whole bunch of kids, a great husband, and, a beautiful house.
Rose: ok, Jack, (now she is wide awake) I promise. I will never let go.

Rose then starts singing to herself on the bed frame and Jack is clinging to the frame . Minutes pass.

Rose: Jack, we ate going to have a great life when we get out of this. We will have stories to tell.
(Pause)
Rose: Jack?
Rose: Jack! Jack! (Rose grabs his hand, Jack gives no response). Wake up, Jack ! Wake up!!!

Jack is dead. Rose clings to Jack's hand for a minute and let's it go and Jack floats to the bottom of the sea....

Now, I say that story, Reeses, and, I bet you'll never in a eon guess my favorite candy bar, , so you can see that what ?

What, is it Green? That I should never let go of life. Yes, that is true, and, btw. Rose keeps herself awake on the bed frame and a rescue boat comes and in the hoarsest of voices she says, 'Here. I'm here.'.

She is saved and God will save you sooo much heartache if you just let go and attach yourself to where God has you going now. God wants us sometimes in our life to venture, as Relena says, into the unknown. But that does not seem to be the case for your life now, AsIf. God has you concretely doing business. Doesn't't he? Or, is their feeling deep inside you that you are to go pursue ministry like your father?

Sorry, not probably quite on topic, but I will blame it on my green brain and go on.
Do not be attached to anything else but being in the will of God and your willingness to follow Him will continue to change your life in a great way, Reeses, to bless you, and, glorify Him.

 

[AsifinPassing]

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Yes, I apologize for the double post too, unintentional, just wanted one post, edited, but typing on a MyTouch 4G a lot of chatting affects my communication...

Yes, Relena (your name reminds me of Selena, beautiful voice, died way too young, tragically, too), well said, I love the Titanic movie for all the good moments of inspiration, includng my favorite part where Jack and Rose are on the bed, floating in the middle of the Atlantic.

Rose has nearly fallen asleep, shivering, as Jack goes to wake her up, for if she falls asleep there's little doubt she would ever wake up again in this kind of cold, not to mention, dead of night situation, no one around. Jack, too, tried to get on the bed frame but it began to sink, so he got off and stayed clinging to the frame and in the icy cold waters.

Jack: Rose. Rose! Rose! Wake up! Wake up!
Rose: What. Huh? (groggy)
Jack: Rose, you mustn't fall asleep.
Rose: ok, Jack. (And she begins to fall asleep again).
Jack: Rose! Rose, Rose!!!
Rose: Huh.
Jack: Rose, you must promise me that you will never let go. Y-y-you (shivering) have a lot of living left to do. You are going to have a whole bunch of kids, a great husband, and, a beautiful house.
Rose: ok, Jack, (now she is wide awake) I promise. I will never let go.

Rose then starts singing to herself on the bed frame and Jack is clinging to the frame . Minutes pass.

Rose: Jack, we ate going to have a great life when we get out of this. We will have stories to tell.
(Pause)
Rose: Jack?
Rose: Jack! Jack! (Rose grabs his hand, Jack gives no response). Wake up, Jack ! Wake up!!!

Jack is dead. Rose clings to Jack's hand for a minute and let's it go and Jack floats to the bottom of the sea....

Now, I say that story, Reeses, and, I bet you'll never in a eon guess my favorite candy bar, , so you can see that what ?

What, is it Green? That I should never let go of life. Yes, that is true, and, btw. Rose keeps herself awake on the bed frame and a rescue boat comes and in the hoarsest of voices she says, 'Here. I'm here.'.

She is saved and God will save you sooo much heartache if you just let go and attach yourself to where God has you going now. God wants us sometimes in our life to venture, as Relena says, into the unknown. But that does not seem to be the case for your life now, AsIf. God has you concretely doing business. Doesn't't he? Or, is their feeling deep inside you that you are to go pursue ministry like your father?

Sorry, not probably quite on topic, but I will blame it on my green brain and go on.
Do not be attached to anything else but being in the will of God and your willingness to follow Him will continue to change your life in a great way, Reeses, to bless you, and, glorify Him.

There are a lot of feelings deep inside me, man. Thank you.

Honestly, my father is a great man, but he is him; and I am me. So we can put any path that was starting to trail off to, to rest.

Am I clinging to things I need to let go of? Yeah, probably.

The question is, which is stronger, the part of me that will drown, or the one trying to stay awake?

*Random liked songs post with hidden application to conversation*

Awake Secondhand Serenade (with lyrics) - YouTube

End - Secondhand Serenade - YouTube

 

[GreenNnice]

There are a lot of feelings deep inside me, man. Thank you.

Honestly, my father is a great man, but he is him; and I am me. So we can put any path that was starting to trail off to, to rest.

Am I clinging to things I need to let go of? Yeah, probably.

The question is, which is stronger, the part of me that will drown, or the one trying to stay awake?

*Random liked songs post with hidden application to conversation*

Awake Secondhand Serenade (with lyrics) - YouTube

End - Secondhand Serenade - YouTube

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Nnnnmm, why, AsIf? As if we don't have enough problems in life why does God have to have us with the problem of being let down, utterly broken, in love?

And, I can't answer that. No one can truly answer why God allows what He does, but I know one thing , that I am going to believe through all the pain of the world I see, I am going to keep believing that God is Love. God loves us beyond any end that we can dream up the means that He should not love us. Any, any, any...

I say several phrases, phrases I feel strongly of, phrases that demonstrate my willingness to put God in front (first) of all things and people-as best I humanly can- in my life.

The Lord leads. And, yes, that is one of the phrases I use, and, you've been around me enough to know I not only say that phrase but I say it often, at times. The Lord leads.

But, after listening to those two Secondhand Seranade songs, I have this to say, and, I am not judging you because I too derive meaning, sometimes great, from secular songs not using God in their lyrics: Put more Jesus music in your life. Less love music and more Love, AsIf, if that makes any sense, Christ bro. And, I tried to listen to your other song expressing a song of you but my MyTouch 4G would notbopen it, for some reason. My other communication device is a G-Slate, and, it too is Android, so will try with it but will have to go to library. Otherwise, the Lord leads, but I probably would have listened to it and commented by now my thoughts of its serenade, or, just its singing.

To end, the song about not letting down got me to thinking of another of my favorite phrases and with this one people can hear it (even I for a short time ) and think it means God will never let things go bad for you, never disappoint you. But that is really not what God had me mean at all by saying this phrase: God is the only one who will never let you down.

That song TOTALLY reflects what is meant said, I think. God will never let you down (from His arms). He will never let you drown, unless it is with your peaceful knowing that why you are dying is undetstood, beautifully so, in His eyes.

No better example of death understanding and being with Jesus than Stephen, who saw God (read Acts chapter 7 think it is) as the people were stoning him to Stephen's death.

AsIf, I know you have experienced something with a girl that was beautiful, I feel that from your past talking to me and others. I honestly can't relate to that sort of experience, I wish God have me that , often, and, then I give that thought to God and realize what He has given me is what is best for me .
What God has given you in the past is best for you, Reece, and, those experiences and memories I pray you use to swim to the safety of His waiting arms, who are , maybe, even seeming miles away now. Just swim, He will never let you drown.

 

[Jullianna]

I'm still pondering your post, Reece. Haven't forgotten you.

 

[seoulsearch]

I learned the hard way not to just take anyone, but only the ones which God ordains, however, I often feel and have become of the persuasion that I don't deserve such a gift as a wife. She would be able to do so much better than me, and I wouldn't want to put my, for lack of a better term, junk on her or hurt the person I'm meant to love most.

In any case, what are your thoughts?

I am just wondering what it is that you feel is so challenging or burdensome in your life, self, or past that you feel is too much for someone else to handle, if that's not too personal to ask? Maybe it would help us give you some better feedback?

I can relate to many of the things you are saying--especially when you said that you think deeply and constantly.

I will have situations at work where a group of co-workers are talking about the latest drama and if someone were to ask me what's on my mind, I wish I could tell them the truth--that I just read a deeply disturbing article in the paper and I know God is pressing me to pray for them when I get home from work and when I wake up early in the morning.

I long to have someone I can really share my TRUE thoughts with and not just go through the motions or pretend I care about things I really don't care about (such as, who's dating who behind who's back when everyone already knows about it.)

Sometimes it feels like it shouldn't be possible to keep on living and feel so alone... I can totally relate!

 

[AsifinPassing]

*small sigh*. Thanks everyone.

To Green, I hear ya, bro. My confidence in God is never shaken. Confidence in myself...this matter differs. The song you couldn't listen to has a chorus which states, "the only thing that's good in me is Jesus."

I often realize that secular music grows the worldliness in me, and I try to limit it. I also strive to be real, though, and will not dance around the brokness in which most people live.

I appreciate you Green, and receive your insight. Thanks bud.

Jullianna, thank you! You, though quite different, may have a better ability to understand me, as you too share some of the rarities of my personality, passion, faith, ext.

Seoulsearch, hang in there. I would like to share in more detail these things, but must first come to terms with them. How can I explain to another that which I've yet to define myself? Anyway, as a start, the intensity of thought and emotion in which I live each day seems overwhelming and uncomfortable to most others. My last girlfriend labeled it as depression, but I've always...well, at least for a long period of time, been this way.

In any case, apart from that, I am just one of the many men in the world who wages war against pornography, an overstimulated sex drive, and unwholesome thinking. There are battles that I win. There are those which I lose. Occasionally, there are those where I impressively lose, but all the same, I fight. The sad reality is, when it comes to things of an addictive or mood-altering nature, the war is life long.

Apart from these, my vices include laziness, sometimes apathy, lack of focus, somewhat easy momentary disheartening, over-indulgenece and poor physical fitness, and several others I'm probably just not thinking of. Paul talks about boasting in his faults...I can do that.

Anyway, all these things aside, I just struggle with the desire for a mate, wife, partner, friend, ext. By no means am I trying to say that Jesus isn't enough, he's more than can be fathomed, but the whole physical touch and intimacy thing is kind of important to me. They say humans desire touch around six times a day on average, and I reserve such contact for a romantic relationship mostly, so you can only imagine...

 

[Jullianna]

Reece, I've heard your heart time and time again. It's beautiful. You really need to understand that.

You have a powerful calling in music ministry. When you praise, you touch hearts. This is exactly why you struggle as you do, as David did. There are lesser powers who understand what effective praise can do in the lives of God's people and that power constantly seeks to shut you down and shut you up. I love that you never let it.

Those of us who are passionate people struggle with such issues. It's part of who we are. It's one of the things that enables us to do what we do as effectively as we do. It makes us more compassionate. And it makes us more dependant upon the one who sees those flaws in us, knows our hearts and uses us anyway.

Will be praying for you. Needed to understand where you were going before I responded. You got there.

 

[AsifinPassing]

Reece, I've heard your heart time and time again. It's beautiful. You really need to understand that.

You have a powerful calling in music ministry. When you praise, you touch hearts. This is exactly why you struggle as you do, as David did. There are lesser powers who understand what effective praise can do in the lives of God's people and that power constantly seeks to shut you down and shut you up. I love that you never let it.

Those of us who are passionate people struggle with such issues. It's part of who we are. It's one of the things that enables us to do what we do as effectively as we do. It makes us more compassionate. And it makes us more dependant upon the one who sees those flaws in us, knows our hearts and uses us anyway.

Will be praying for you. Needed to understand where you were going before I responded. You got there.

As always, I'm blessed to know you. Thanks Jullianna. Props to those of us peering into each others souls, lol. ^^

 

[See_KING_Truth]

Reece, there is a reason why it wasn't just Adam back in the days of the garden...

Genesis 2:18
The LORD God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him.”

Your longing for a mate is normal.

I understand where you are coming from, as I have been there myself. This my personal opinion here, but true confidence in a Christian is not about being confident in yourself, it is about being confident of who you are in Christ.

We are all works in progress, every single one of us! It is possible that God is preparing you for a mate, and to be the spiritual leader of your household. God is able to use all of these things for your benefit.

Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.