As a present daydreaming Writing to future spouse is not bad. If the one you think would fit is alive and somewhere is, I would keep on: You are writing to the "object" of your present love and to the "subject" of your love (even to the iinermost YOU).
When you write, you leave a record of your emotions, desires and dreams. If you wnat to be well understood, keep them on. If you want to know more ABOU YOURSELVES, durind certain stage of your life (or the moment of your emotions) just make it as a paper record.
Time by time, if the persons "was" not the object or subject of your words, if he/she wasn´t THE SOUND of those words yor solely spelled... Just keep on to know you! (and
do not share those secret emotiones you addressed thinking in another person who is gone, somehow).
If those words serve to teach your, or others, get a fake moniker and publish them on line (just to check the way you were and to correct any possible fault you had hidden inside your self).
Certain day, when I was getting divorced (
this is the 1st time I publish this in English) I went to my ex-wife´s house. I saw there wasn´t any. My children were gone and, also, my ex and, surprisingly, I saw the door unlocked (a very rare thing overthere).
I stepped in.
I searched inside I saw
the mess they normally have... (one of the reasons I left them). But I decided to be creative, since I had some cans of paints, so I decided to paint there windows and their main door.
While I was doing so, I needed a piece of paper to clean something I don´t remember. I tried to find old newspapers, but I couldn´t, except when I saw several papers that looked OUT ot the trash can I never saw.
I swept the floor a little and, quickly, I saw there were too many pieces torn, of the same papers and, I had an idea when reading these...
I reconstructed those pieces I have found on the floor. I knew how to bond all of them, I was picking to understand the issue...
These were LOVE LETTERS. These were all those my ex-wife was writing
to her lover...
I felt I hate her. i felt jelous because I NEVER saw she wrote -things like that- for me. Of course I was THEIR INTIMACY I saw, but also read she was aware he was a cheater, that she was ready to keep on fighting to get him back, althought she knew he was marred to another... (
omitting details for respect of your eyes, your minds and the kids who could read).
I felt my anger and I knew I could kill a man for adultering. I felt I rejected, myself, because I came "home" and I tried to amend these things and, because of their absency, I started to paint ther door, their windows, just to leave them a simple present, a surprise... But I was me who got sadly surprised.
I have lived to be strong, mentally healthy, smart, and so on.
It was a lesson I learned the hard way (I only cheated -on her- once during 13 years) and this pain healed my entired life because, before I was Christian, I was a cheater and a promiscuos man.
I don´t remember having written a letter for a spouse I´ve planned to meet. I know I have written TOO many things for the people I have met and those i have left...
After divorce, I became a "bloggist" and I let my steam be off by writng, publicly, what I felt. I was so deep my sorrow, that I thought life was meaningless, worth of nothing and -any day- I pulled (3 times) the trigger of my big firegun... The last time I planned to blow my head pulling it, i thought about my son Joshua. I thought many things I even thought God "was so selfish" because He never said: "Don´t do it" or "Stop it! Because I love you".
So, if you think your past can help another to know you: re-write in the new personal approach of a new person who dres to LOVE YOU the way you are (He/she doesn´t need to know your past: Except you are highly depressive or suicidal) (a thing
I am not).
Do not let them know how much you´ve loved ANOTHER.
Do not let them know how much you´ve missed those who left you or those you left:
Your past is past (They will love you at the PRESENT state you are) (Hope they
never try to change you:
They haven´t change themselves, but are so quick -and willing- to change or coach another)
How foolish these are!
Give HONOR those who deserve it... Keep the records of your faults (to avoid repeating them).
"Forgive, to be forgiven"