We love you, Lil. I can very much relate to a lot of what you're saying--for the better or worse, the older I get, the more blunt I seem to become as well, and while I'm trying to work on it, I know how it is to need to step back and refocus. Some of my favorite days off (which are rarer these days) are when I don't have to leave the house and choose not to deal with anyone!
You have been through so much the past year or so--we love you very much and are always here if you need to talk or vent. Please feel free to get a hold of me if I can be of any help at all. I admire you so much for how you've handled so many situations I can't even imagine going through right now, and I often look to you as an example of how to deal with trials and losses with faith and even gratitude. You are amazing!
I read so many of your posts and have said so many times to myself, "I hope I'm even half as smart as Lil when I grow up!!"
Love and big hugs to you, sweetheart!