Any one who has read me in these single forums knows that my single status has been pestering me. I admit that I knew that I was just in a season, a temporary fleeting moment, that soon I'll be better than fine...
BUT still, it started me thinking…
Why all the sudden am I thinking about what's missing? Did He put in me a desire to have another because that is what He wants for me? I'm pragmatic by nature. I like to be reasonable and proactive. I like to work through my discomfort and restlessness head on with His help. I know that regardless what is to be, the realistic emotional logistics and realities, for now, insist that I get my priorities straight.
Rather than ponder, yearn and speculate on what He might have for me, I need to realize that the portion He has for me resides in Him. He calls us to be content and satisfied with our lot.
What was I suggesting, even manifesting that He is lacking? Was I saying that He's not enough, that something is missing?
Oh me oh my... where the inadequacy and insufficiency dwells is in my thinking…
Ahhhh deep breath, I am so glad that I have stepped back into His rest. I'm sure it won't be the last time of unease. However, when it comes down to it, He, nothing else or noone, can sustainably please. If I start wanting and longing, aching for more, how can my lines fall into pleasant places? It is at His right hand there are pleasures foevermore.
My Lord, please forgive my lack of praise, for not appreciating our relationship. I know You will always be more than enough. I lift my soul to Yours.
Now I want to add a disclaimer of sorts, lol, to anyone still reading. If you think my transparency is me just hinting and looking here for a partner, you are mistaken. I don't spend my life desperate and dissatisfied. In fact, most of the time, I am satisfied and blessed. I am only explaining myself because I guess I want you to know me, as I want to know you. I understand, though, how it must appear, but I have no agenda here; I am just sharing, connecting maybe with those who might understand.
Do you?
BUT still, it started me thinking…
Why all the sudden am I thinking about what's missing? Did He put in me a desire to have another because that is what He wants for me? I'm pragmatic by nature. I like to be reasonable and proactive. I like to work through my discomfort and restlessness head on with His help. I know that regardless what is to be, the realistic emotional logistics and realities, for now, insist that I get my priorities straight.
Rather than ponder, yearn and speculate on what He might have for me, I need to realize that the portion He has for me resides in Him. He calls us to be content and satisfied with our lot.
What was I suggesting, even manifesting that He is lacking? Was I saying that He's not enough, that something is missing?
Oh me oh my... where the inadequacy and insufficiency dwells is in my thinking…
Ahhhh deep breath, I am so glad that I have stepped back into His rest. I'm sure it won't be the last time of unease. However, when it comes down to it, He, nothing else or noone, can sustainably please. If I start wanting and longing, aching for more, how can my lines fall into pleasant places? It is at His right hand there are pleasures foevermore.
My Lord, please forgive my lack of praise, for not appreciating our relationship. I know You will always be more than enough. I lift my soul to Yours.
Now I want to add a disclaimer of sorts, lol, to anyone still reading. If you think my transparency is me just hinting and looking here for a partner, you are mistaken. I don't spend my life desperate and dissatisfied. In fact, most of the time, I am satisfied and blessed. I am only explaining myself because I guess I want you to know me, as I want to know you. I understand, though, how it must appear, but I have no agenda here; I am just sharing, connecting maybe with those who might understand.
Do you?
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