-
Christian Chat is a moderated online Christian community allowing Christians around the world to fellowship with each other in real time chat via webcam, voice, and text, with the Christian Chat app. You can also start or participate in a Bible-based discussion here in the Christian Chat Forums, where members can also share with each other their own videos, pictures, or favorite Christian music.
If you are a Christian and need encouragement and fellowship, we're here for you! If you are not a Christian but interested in knowing more about Jesus our Lord, you're also welcome! Want to know what the Bible says, and how you can apply it to your life? Join us!
To make new Christian friends now around the world, click here to join Christian Chat.
Due to recent events, life has become more difficult. As I look back to three years ago, life was wonderful and full of joy.
Even in the last six months, I have found a lot of healing, but still can feel the struggle of life.
I have lost 22 pounds.
I have tried taking care of myself.
I am trying to build my confidence back to where it was about a year and a half ago.
But with all this being said and done, I feel numb.
Even this past week, I have seriously considered canceling my account on here. (Moderators, please do not cancel my account. I am just sharing my feelings right now!) I am no longer known on here, but just a distant memory. Any time I do come on, most of my comments are overlooked or just not responded to. I know full well that this is what happens when there is a thread going on. Some responses are accidentally overlooked. Which is fine. I have a very active social life outside and so I know I'd be okay.
I'm fully expecting some hateful comments on this response, but I am just trying to share my heart right now.
I am depressed.
I am sad.
I am numb.
As much as I'm trying to move forward, stuff has caught up to me. I never used to be a depressed person and it's been happening in the past six months and it's very scary. I can't go into much details, but there are times when I haven't been able to be by myself.
Anyone you ask would say I'm full of joy and life, and inwardly, I'm not. I think a lot of dark things. I say this to a forum full of strangers because the chances of me meeting any of you in life are very unlikely. The only person I'm meeting up with is Siberian in September because we have been super close.
With this being said, I found a song that isn't helping but is positive. Like I said, due to being numb, I don't feel encouraged in most things anymore. Even God isn't cutting it for me.
But, here is the song for those who are struggling. I hope it brings comfort to you, at least.
[video=youtube;R0PCblOjOxg]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R0PCblOjOxg[/video]
Even in the last six months, I have found a lot of healing, but still can feel the struggle of life.
I have lost 22 pounds.
I have tried taking care of myself.
I am trying to build my confidence back to where it was about a year and a half ago.
But with all this being said and done, I feel numb.
Even this past week, I have seriously considered canceling my account on here. (Moderators, please do not cancel my account. I am just sharing my feelings right now!) I am no longer known on here, but just a distant memory. Any time I do come on, most of my comments are overlooked or just not responded to. I know full well that this is what happens when there is a thread going on. Some responses are accidentally overlooked. Which is fine. I have a very active social life outside and so I know I'd be okay.
I'm fully expecting some hateful comments on this response, but I am just trying to share my heart right now.
I am depressed.
I am sad.
I am numb.
As much as I'm trying to move forward, stuff has caught up to me. I never used to be a depressed person and it's been happening in the past six months and it's very scary. I can't go into much details, but there are times when I haven't been able to be by myself.
Anyone you ask would say I'm full of joy and life, and inwardly, I'm not. I think a lot of dark things. I say this to a forum full of strangers because the chances of me meeting any of you in life are very unlikely. The only person I'm meeting up with is Siberian in September because we have been super close.
With this being said, I found a song that isn't helping but is positive. Like I said, due to being numb, I don't feel encouraged in most things anymore. Even God isn't cutting it for me.
But, here is the song for those who are struggling. I hope it brings comfort to you, at least.
[video=youtube;R0PCblOjOxg]https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R0PCblOjOxg[/video]
I see your song and raise you another one. If you're looking for some more songs I also would recommend Michael Card's album The hidden face of God which is all about lament and relating to God when you're suffering and it feels like he's just not paying any attention.
[video=youtube_share;UyZkTxedJ_M]http://youtu.be/UyZkTxedJ_M[/video]
Other than that, you can fill in your favorite platitudes here because I doubt I'll come up with one that is brilliantly moving and better than the ones you've heard a bazillion times before. Though if you're wondering, my personal favorite is : When you're walking through hell.... don't stop and make camp. And know that there are quite a few of us who are willing to listen, and you're free to just shoot me (or several others I'm sure, but I won't speak for them) a PM and spill it all out. Hugs to you.
[video=youtube_share;UyZkTxedJ_M]http://youtu.be/UyZkTxedJ_M[/video]
Other than that, you can fill in your favorite platitudes here because I doubt I'll come up with one that is brilliantly moving and better than the ones you've heard a bazillion times before. Though if you're wondering, my personal favorite is : When you're walking through hell.... don't stop and make camp. And know that there are quite a few of us who are willing to listen, and you're free to just shoot me (or several others I'm sure, but I won't speak for them) a PM and spill it all out. Hugs to you.
W
I think I am finally going to have to leave CC.
A few things are becoming apparent:
- Many (most?!) Americans think Europe is a communist-socialist society brianwashed by either the government or the dangerous terrorists lurking in every corner ready to kill us all
- According to the sane people, Americans have freedom of speech, others do not
Thus Americans can say the above things unchecked, while if Europeans say anything negative (or just against what is considered correct by the masses) in the US, we are ignorant or brainwashed or whatever other insult people can come up with
- Not to mention all the people telling everyone they are going to hell if they don't agree with them
.....
I am not saying you ("my" crazy gang) are like that. I just needed to let you know what is going on (and keep myself from storming out of here with a silly thread like so many of the others who left).
I am going to miss you incredibly much, but the overall CC community now makes me feel unwanted.
The only reason I have stayed so long, is you guys, but CC is now draining me, rather than filling me spiritually.
*hugs all*
Thanks for all the laughs, hugs and prayers.
Bye all.
A few things are becoming apparent:
- Many (most?!) Americans think Europe is a communist-socialist society brianwashed by either the government or the dangerous terrorists lurking in every corner ready to kill us all
- According to the sane people, Americans have freedom of speech, others do not
Thus Americans can say the above things unchecked, while if Europeans say anything negative (or just against what is considered correct by the masses) in the US, we are ignorant or brainwashed or whatever other insult people can come up with
- Not to mention all the people telling everyone they are going to hell if they don't agree with them
.....
I am not saying you ("my" crazy gang) are like that. I just needed to let you know what is going on (and keep myself from storming out of here with a silly thread like so many of the others who left).
I am going to miss you incredibly much, but the overall CC community now makes me feel unwanted.
The only reason I have stayed so long, is you guys, but CC is now draining me, rather than filling me spiritually.
*hugs all*
Thanks for all the laughs, hugs and prayers.
Bye all.
I think I am finally going to have to leave CC.
A few things are becoming apparent:
- Many (most?!) Americans think Europe is a communist-socialist society brianwashed by either the government or the dangerous terrorists lurking in every corner ready to kill us all
- According to the sane people, Americans have freedom of speech, others do not
Thus Americans can say the above things unchecked, while if Europeans say anything negative (or just against what is considered correct by the masses) in the US, we are ignorant or brainwashed or whatever other insult people can come up with
- Not to mention all the people telling everyone they are going to hell if they don't agree with them
.....
I am not saying you ("my" crazy gang) are like that. I just needed to let you know what is going on (and keep myself from storming out of here with a silly thread like so many of the others who left).
I am going to miss you incredibly much, but the overall CC community now makes me feel unwanted.
The only reason I have stayed so long, is you guys, but CC is now draining me, rather than filling me spiritually.
*hugs all*
Thanks for all the laughs, hugs and prayers.
Bye all.
A few things are becoming apparent:
- Many (most?!) Americans think Europe is a communist-socialist society brianwashed by either the government or the dangerous terrorists lurking in every corner ready to kill us all
- According to the sane people, Americans have freedom of speech, others do not
Thus Americans can say the above things unchecked, while if Europeans say anything negative (or just against what is considered correct by the masses) in the US, we are ignorant or brainwashed or whatever other insult people can come up with
- Not to mention all the people telling everyone they are going to hell if they don't agree with them
.....
I am not saying you ("my" crazy gang) are like that. I just needed to let you know what is going on (and keep myself from storming out of here with a silly thread like so many of the others who left).
I am going to miss you incredibly much, but the overall CC community now makes me feel unwanted.
The only reason I have stayed so long, is you guys, but CC is now draining me, rather than filling me spiritually.
*hugs all*
Thanks for all the laughs, hugs and prayers.
Bye all.
Although, I'll still see you, CC won't be the same without you.