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The longer I live the more I see that I know nothing or what I know is keeping me away from what I should know or experience.
Why do we hate our enemies so badly? Aren't they helping us to find out who we really are?
If we see it that way - will they still be seen by us as enemies or more as a sick and poor people - who doesn't know
what they are doing most of the time.
Noone can walk in truth and do bad things unless..... we believe lie.
What if anyone believes in same sort of lies created by another people (family, books, etc) - can open comunication base on truth be ever possible?
We meet those difficult people or experience difficulties in our families to see our lies first - not to point someone else lies.
The biggest mistake I did/do is to see the other person before seeing me - I pray to God to give me patience with others and my wick and forgetful nature.
The hardest thing I experience is to discover lie after lie in my own beliefs system.
There were too many of them - and it hurts each time but the some time you feel relife and joy that you
are free from that lie - you can fight something which you don't see.
There is so much to unlearn that the only thing I have to learn is to be patience with myself - and that is so hard.
Sometimes I think who is thinking and why is so crap there.
I could proof that I wasted my life but did I really? I'm not sure even that - what if I had a perfect life - I would never
get closer to God.
What would be a point of such a life? Where I would have everything I ever dream of.
I feel much more grateful for my past experiences then I ever did beafore. It all brought me to knowing that this life
is for a deeper reason.
Beafore I thought it is bad to feel grateful - it all was a bit doll and confiusing for me to understand so I was feeling more negative and afraid then anything else.
There is a reason for each situation and person we meet in our daily life - and God's love in each of these moments. If we only trust and believe that he can change everything into good - how big freedom that knowledge would gife us?
If we can't - what is stopping us?
Not enough time?
Lots of things to do?
What if that was our last day - would we like to spend it doing our 'things' or learing to trust to God.
What can be more important in our last day?
Someone once said - how can you know God if you don't know yourself?
Exacly how someone who you don't really know which you call yourself can know 'God' which created each of us.
It doesn't make sense.
the other thing is how can you love something you doesn't know?
If you can't love yourself - how can you love God - who created you?
You can't love God and not love yourself - how can anyone love creation without loving creator - it doean't make sense.
And that is the most difficult part in feight to accept that we can't love God without selfacceptance.
To be able to accept yourself - you have to see who you really are.
I was trying to do that - but I'm starting to thing that there is a missing thing there.
Still not enough connection to God - not enough asking him for help or give that problem and let him decided what is best.
More and more I can see now that we need quite a bit 'quiet time' with Him.
If we struggel to find that or make excusses how we can expect to be with him all eternity if now we hardly have time for him.
I don't like that - person should do anything to have constant present of the Lord - at least try.
Only He knows us best and can show us the way of finding out who we are and how much he loves us.
We can't connect to his love if don't trust to him but to ourselves - but who is ourselves?
do we really know who we gave trust?
If we think we can trust him = there is a test = imagine that he ask you to leave all your family/home/job and never come back = can you do that?
Now you know how much you trust him - if the answer was 'yes' congratulation.
I don't think I could honestly say on 100% 'yes'.
Why do we hate our enemies so badly? Aren't they helping us to find out who we really are?
If we see it that way - will they still be seen by us as enemies or more as a sick and poor people - who doesn't know
what they are doing most of the time.
Noone can walk in truth and do bad things unless..... we believe lie.
What if anyone believes in same sort of lies created by another people (family, books, etc) - can open comunication base on truth be ever possible?
We meet those difficult people or experience difficulties in our families to see our lies first - not to point someone else lies.
The biggest mistake I did/do is to see the other person before seeing me - I pray to God to give me patience with others and my wick and forgetful nature.
The hardest thing I experience is to discover lie after lie in my own beliefs system.
There were too many of them - and it hurts each time but the some time you feel relife and joy that you
are free from that lie - you can fight something which you don't see.
There is so much to unlearn that the only thing I have to learn is to be patience with myself - and that is so hard.
Sometimes I think who is thinking and why is so crap there.
I could proof that I wasted my life but did I really? I'm not sure even that - what if I had a perfect life - I would never
get closer to God.
What would be a point of such a life? Where I would have everything I ever dream of.
I feel much more grateful for my past experiences then I ever did beafore. It all brought me to knowing that this life
is for a deeper reason.
Beafore I thought it is bad to feel grateful - it all was a bit doll and confiusing for me to understand so I was feeling more negative and afraid then anything else.
There is a reason for each situation and person we meet in our daily life - and God's love in each of these moments. If we only trust and believe that he can change everything into good - how big freedom that knowledge would gife us?
If we can't - what is stopping us?
Not enough time?
Lots of things to do?
What if that was our last day - would we like to spend it doing our 'things' or learing to trust to God.
What can be more important in our last day?
Someone once said - how can you know God if you don't know yourself?
Exacly how someone who you don't really know which you call yourself can know 'God' which created each of us.
It doesn't make sense.
the other thing is how can you love something you doesn't know?
If you can't love yourself - how can you love God - who created you?
You can't love God and not love yourself - how can anyone love creation without loving creator - it doean't make sense.
And that is the most difficult part in feight to accept that we can't love God without selfacceptance.
To be able to accept yourself - you have to see who you really are.
I was trying to do that - but I'm starting to thing that there is a missing thing there.
Still not enough connection to God - not enough asking him for help or give that problem and let him decided what is best.
More and more I can see now that we need quite a bit 'quiet time' with Him.
If we struggel to find that or make excusses how we can expect to be with him all eternity if now we hardly have time for him.
I don't like that - person should do anything to have constant present of the Lord - at least try.
Only He knows us best and can show us the way of finding out who we are and how much he loves us.
We can't connect to his love if don't trust to him but to ourselves - but who is ourselves?
do we really know who we gave trust?
If we think we can trust him = there is a test = imagine that he ask you to leave all your family/home/job and never come back = can you do that?
Now you know how much you trust him - if the answer was 'yes' congratulation.
I don't think I could honestly say on 100% 'yes'.