What step/s are you taking to find a spouse? (multiple-choice poll)
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Yes, Australia is made up of South Australia (where I live), Western Australia, Northern Territory, Queensland, New South Wales, the Australian Capital Territory (ACT, Canberra), Victoria and Tasmania.
As for the hook-up, I don't know what to think. I'm bother flattered that someone thought enough of me, but also a bit threatened. It would be new ground for me and I'm not sure I'm ready. Also, I'd rather pursue. Maybe I'll give it a chance. I'll pray about it.
As for the hook-up, I don't know what to think. I'm bother flattered that someone thought enough of me, but also a bit threatened. It would be new ground for me and I'm not sure I'm ready. Also, I'd rather pursue. Maybe I'll give it a chance. I'll pray about it.
Dying to my self-perception and insecurities, i.e., instead of seeing my own self and assume who and what I am base on what society says but seeing through how God sees me, and letting God be my sole security.
Someone I had a privilege to get to know for a brief period of time told me that in her last email as to "steps" God's having her to take. I had a chance to meditate on that this week and it changed the dynamic of dating considerably. A coworker had a doctor's appointment this week, got to know two beautiful single RNs and told to me that she will hook me up with one of them. My first initial reaction was NO because I felt like I wasn't "successful" enough to date them. Yes, God is my only security for certain; no question about it. Yet, I still see how my own self-perception tries to shadow how God sees me and maybe rejecting the possibility of meeting someone I've been waiting for. It was a powerful awakening and awareness personally.
Someone I had a privilege to get to know for a brief period of time told me that in her last email as to "steps" God's having her to take. I had a chance to meditate on that this week and it changed the dynamic of dating considerably. A coworker had a doctor's appointment this week, got to know two beautiful single RNs and told to me that she will hook me up with one of them. My first initial reaction was NO because I felt like I wasn't "successful" enough to date them. Yes, God is my only security for certain; no question about it. Yet, I still see how my own self-perception tries to shadow how God sees me and maybe rejecting the possibility of meeting someone I've been waiting for. It was a powerful awakening and awareness personally.
"Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cause I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man, yeah
Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only one..." (Rihanna - Only Girl)
So I heard this song on the radio tonight and It struck a weird nerve. I guess thats what music is suppose to do but for some reason, there is a thought that I've tried to articulate to my own standards and I've failed.
I don't think any of us are looking for the same thing.
I'm not dating anyone right meow. I have a fear that someone is going to want to be with me to stave off being alone, to fit in or for companionship, because I'm "A Guy" and a guy who meets the qualifications is what they are looking for. I've been told in past relationships that my expressiveness is too intense, that my attention is too much and that my romantic gestures are simply too obnoxious.
Not all of us are right for each other. We can talk about personality differences or whatever but the honest truth is, there is a part of me that wants to rise to the occasion of winning a heart, with all that I am. I don't want her to want "a guy", and she just so happened to find me. I don't want her to be superstitious and look for a sign as to who she should date, while I try to get her attention or fit into her mold. I want to be inspired, I want to chase, and I want to win for who I am and all that I believe in.
And more than that, I want to feel like, it matters as much to them as it does to me. I want her to be inspired, not for how persuasive I can be to everyone else, but for the principles I stand for. I want someone to be jealous for my affection and possessive of my heart. I don't want to be shut down and relegated to the role of inoffensive sweater wearing churchy nice guy.
My fear has been realized in the past. Where I know with every fiber of my being that I'm dating someone else's future spouse. Someone is going to love them, as they are. For me this takes admitting that I have value, needs, and boundaries of my own. I shouldn't have to bury my heart six feet under the backyard just so I can fit in well enough to date. Eventually when it digs itself out, I wind up letting people go. I eventually remember what love really means, and that there is no love in simply going through the motions.
So for now, I'm working on relearning to trust that who I am is not too intense. The girls that want "a guy" are not for me, and I shouldn't be bothered by the fact that I'm not going to fit into their mold. I should only care what one lady thinks, not women in general. I'm not hunting for thousands of women, I only want one. She's probably not going to fit "the mold" either, and that excites me.
So I'm not dating or looking, I'm just being me. And frankly that just might be enough.
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only girl in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Cause I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a man, yeah
Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart
Only one..." (Rihanna - Only Girl)
So I heard this song on the radio tonight and It struck a weird nerve. I guess thats what music is suppose to do but for some reason, there is a thought that I've tried to articulate to my own standards and I've failed.
I don't think any of us are looking for the same thing.
I'm not dating anyone right meow. I have a fear that someone is going to want to be with me to stave off being alone, to fit in or for companionship, because I'm "A Guy" and a guy who meets the qualifications is what they are looking for. I've been told in past relationships that my expressiveness is too intense, that my attention is too much and that my romantic gestures are simply too obnoxious.
Not all of us are right for each other. We can talk about personality differences or whatever but the honest truth is, there is a part of me that wants to rise to the occasion of winning a heart, with all that I am. I don't want her to want "a guy", and she just so happened to find me. I don't want her to be superstitious and look for a sign as to who she should date, while I try to get her attention or fit into her mold. I want to be inspired, I want to chase, and I want to win for who I am and all that I believe in.
And more than that, I want to feel like, it matters as much to them as it does to me. I want her to be inspired, not for how persuasive I can be to everyone else, but for the principles I stand for. I want someone to be jealous for my affection and possessive of my heart. I don't want to be shut down and relegated to the role of inoffensive sweater wearing churchy nice guy.
My fear has been realized in the past. Where I know with every fiber of my being that I'm dating someone else's future spouse. Someone is going to love them, as they are. For me this takes admitting that I have value, needs, and boundaries of my own. I shouldn't have to bury my heart six feet under the backyard just so I can fit in well enough to date. Eventually when it digs itself out, I wind up letting people go. I eventually remember what love really means, and that there is no love in simply going through the motions.
So for now, I'm working on relearning to trust that who I am is not too intense. The girls that want "a guy" are not for me, and I shouldn't be bothered by the fact that I'm not going to fit into their mold. I should only care what one lady thinks, not women in general. I'm not hunting for thousands of women, I only want one. She's probably not going to fit "the mold" either, and that excites me.
So I'm not dating or looking, I'm just being me. And frankly that just might be enough.