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blue_ladybug

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So are you male or female? If you are female, and your name is blue instead of pink for female, please contact s mode to change it.

If you are male, I think we have discovered the root of your problem. It sounds like you are talking about romantic homosexual love. I first want you to know how much Jesus loves you. But romantic homosexual love is wrong in both the Old and New Testaments. When you break God's law, the result is turmoil and conflict. You need to repent, or turn away from your sins.

Talk to a pastor or someone who understands this lifestyle choice. Contact Yeraza_Bats above and he can give you help. It is possible to lead s much happier life if you break out of the lifestyle. We have a man in my church who walked away from homosexuality and had been happily married to a woman for 25 years!

Angela, Levi IS a male, who THINKS he's homosexual. :)
 
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Levichevett

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It doesnt really matter because its all over we completely ended things and I just feel like crap again because hes saying I overreacted when this is important like basically my ex said I forced her into having a abortion when I was against that she chose to do it and she told my bf and he believes her over me and thats just if you cant trust someone then you really shouldnt be around them and everyone hates me now. Right now I am looking forward to going to that hospital because then I wont have to put up with all this constant drama and frustration itll probabaly do me a lot of good to get away from them and my brother said that I dont have to go to school this week so I probabaly wont for the rest of it and I dont think Im gonna go back there when I get out I want to move somewhere new where I dont have to have all this stuff going on and I dont have to feel like this. I really do hate my life so much and no one can live happy like that. Idk what else to say after that
 
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Levichevett

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I dont know if I want to change being gay but I want to be happy
 
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wwjd_kilden

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#44
It sounds like you need a break from relationships altogether, you are way too young to get involved in pregnancies,
and the best way not to get tempted is to stay away from what tempts (so maybe try platonic relationships now?)

Ditch your fake friends, find a place where you can get real ones. (To be honest I have no idea how that works as I am a lone wolf type myself).
 
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kaylagrl

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I dont know if I want to change being gay but I want to be happy
Until you make your mind up spiritually you will never be happy.That is your first step.
 
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Levichevett..so sorry you 'feel" that GOD made you gay. What an assumption! Gay and being happy used to walk hand in hand..now it means something different. What gay person wants to NOT be happy? Most gays honestly believe that GOD made them that way, so they have an excuse to continue in their chosen lifestyle, bravely pretending they are extra blessed or deserve worldly notice for their sick choice. Gays give each other 'coming out" parties, march in parades, and announce that they deserve RITES and should be honored. They toot their own horn and demand instant respect. However, I have yet to meet a gay person who gives that kind of respect to JESUS CHRIST. At this point in time, there is no tombstone with the word GAY carved into it for homage. What you have here is an evil, dominating dark spirit inhabiting your mind. Only the Holy Spirit can make it flee, and only in the name of JESUS. However, we see NO mention nor desire on your part that you want this to happen. What we get stuck with is the residue, or spouting off of your opinions and 'pity me' postings. You need JESUS in your life, not a place where you can VENT and never think of changing. Think about it. Who, after reading your recent posts, would want to change to your chosen lifestyle? What do you have that others want? Where is the joy, the fun, in YOUR life that would draw someone to your side? I know JESUS personally. He can make that change needed in your life...but HE is a gentleman....only answering when you seek and knock on His door.
 
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Colt45Bullet

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OK, listen to me. Your going through a living hell right now. But you caused those issues. You forced life's hand to deal you the cards you were dealt. And you got caught up in it. But you know what? Life goes on. The good stuff is right over this hill. That abortion is something you both did. You both committed the act that forced the abortion. So you are equally guilty. What you need is time to get yourself together. I honestly, dont think your gay at all. I think you just want to find something that works. But you will never find it by sinning. And everyone on this site will agree with me, cause we are all sinners and we all know what it is like. But you need to get back up, and get past this. Only the weak people wallow in their own self-pity, and only the weak kill themselves. Not only is it a very stupid and selfish thing, but it rips families apart. And you are not weak. This is your moment to decide. Only you can make this choice. No one else.
 
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I dont know if I want to change being gay but I want to be happy
You ultimately will never be happy by continuing in disobedience to God. You know it's not what He wants.

Please just focus on your relationship with God. That's the real love you need; not some twisted counterfeit that's only hurting you, not helping.
 
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Colt45Bullet

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*WARNING! GRAPHIC STORY*
Im going to tell this story because it needs to be told.
A few days ago, my friend and I were hanging out, having a few drinks on the porch. It was really nice out that evening, Ill get forget it because he said, "Lets go get some fast food and hang out and get truckers to blow their horns." So, I said OK. A few hours later, the sun was going down. The phone rings. A girl he knew was going to kill herself. We started talking to her, and tried to find out what was going on. Im not going to tell the reasons but she had cut herself already in the stomach area and was bleeding pretty bad. You could hear labored breathing so we knew it was bad. A couple hours pass, then all of a sudden she said, "I appreciate you all talking with me." Then, we didnt hear anything after that for 5 minutes. We called Law Enforcement, they went to her house, and she had tried to gut herself. Blood, and flesh were all over the floor, but someone she lived. I will never be the same. Ever. I hope to God no one has to ever see that again.
 
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Colt45Bullet

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Somehow she survived*
 

Jilly81

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Levi, you said that you want to be happy, but you aren't going to be happy while you're running from God. Until you let Jesus save you from your sins and be Lord of your life, there really isn't anything I can do to help you. He hung naked on a cross for you. When you're ready to do things His way, things can start to improve. Until then, I'm just going to ask Him to show you that He really is the Messiah, and that His ways are true and pure.

I love you, bro. I hope you love yourself enough to allow yourself to be saved. -Jill
 
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LordofthePancakes

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When I tried to kill myself, when I went back to church or deacon told me this verse. Ecclesiastes 7:17 Be not over much wicked, neither be you foolish: why should you die before your time?
 
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Chozzen

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#53
I'm sorry you feel this way. There were plenty times in my life I felt this way and once in a blue moon I go through times where I think about that but not really wanting to die. The enemy doesn't want any of us alive (whether it's a believer or non believer). Aside from whatever is urging you to feel that way, try to look at the opposite. Life hurts, life can tear you up plenty times but we have to keep on moving. Somehow find the strentgh to. When I get low, I try and focus on the times in my life when it was good and I try and think about how happy I would be to have a moment like that embraced again. You need to be connected to positive people, watch movies and shows that make you feel optimistic, take on some projects that bring light to your heart and definitely talk to someone as well as God. The enemy is here to "kill, steal and destroy"...he's killed your joy, he's stealing your desires and he wants to end you. Don let him win. Sometimes I also think about how hard the enemy fights me lets me know how vital I am to myself, someone else and my future is. The enemy has a good trick in making us feel that our lives dont matter and won't.

Take care
 
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Elijah19

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John 14:27

"Peace I leave with you. My peace I give unto you. I to not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

Hope you see that Jesus is still in your corner, friend.
 
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To Colt45, I've had depression for even longer than you've been alive. Mine began at age 5, so I'm pretty sure I know what I'm saying, as to what I speak on depression. Levi needs to hear the truth, not some sugar coated version. He's 14, he's old enough to hear that he's being selfish if he kills himself, and that there is no going back. Suicide is a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem. If he'd focus more on God, than on his current circumstances, he might just get through this hard time, and step back out into the light.
Time for another episode of Keepin' it Real with TannerBrody, so pull up your big boy pants if you're easily offended as it's about to get pg-13 up in here.
First off, I don't know who invented the over used phrase above "Suicide is a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem." ugh.... no it's not. My uncle commited suicide last year at the age of 61. He was suffering from brain cancer and had 6 months to live. His situation was defininatly NOT temporary. He decided to check out early instead of becoming a bed ridden shell of his former self and hopefully soon many states will follow Oregons's lead to allow physican assisted suicide. For anyone here who doesn't believe in it, just head on over to YouTube and watch the video of the guy who was bitten by a rabied bat. They recorded his situation as a case study for medical students. The treatment for rabies infection? Sedate you with enough drugs to try and calm you as you slowly pass into the most painful form of insanity imaginable as the virus literally melts your brain. I'm not going to post the link here for obvious reasons, but imagine how many people have to deal with these kinds of conditions every day around the world. If I was told that I only had 6 months to live I would go out and make the most out of my life, but if I was told that soon I would not be able to walk, talk, or bath myself and I would become a vegatable I would hope the state would allow me the dignity to end it myself.

So why am I bringing all this up? Because your problem Levi has little to do with your sexuality or lifestyle chioces and more to do with simply being a silly teenager in an immature relationship. If you had never brought up your sexuality, everyone would have just thought you were like any other 15 yr old kid arguing with their partner because that's what young angst is. My point is that someday you'll discover real world problems and look back at your teen years like they never mattered. If you told us you were hooked on drugs I would say go to rehab. If you were feeling depressed even when life is good I would say go see a psychiatrist. Just take a look at the thread here asking "What were you like in High School?" Almost everyone here on this forum went through some form of rejection or self identity issues at your age. Focus on God and yourself, join a band, play sports, travel or learn a new language, but most importantly take time to get to know yourself. Everything else will fall into place. Arguing over your XBOX or getting depressed because you found out Taylor Swift has a headache are not reasons to commit suicide.

btw, don't let any neanderthals here tell you being gay is wrong. If we still lived by old testment laws you wouldn't be able to eat shell fish or wear clothes with two different kinds of thread. I see that you live in the u.k.. I just watched the film 'The Imitation Game' last night about Alan Turing. He was a famous British mathmatician who helped crack the Enigma code that helped the allies defeat Hitler and win WW2. His gift for helping save the world? He was arrested for being homosexual and chemically casturated. In 2013 Queen Elizabeth II granted him a full posthumous pardon for "the appaling way he was treated by the government." Be glad you live as a gay man today rather than 100 yrs ago when being gay or black could get you hung from a tree. Times are changing for the better and being young means times on your side. You have so much to live for. Like the great Buddhist philopsher Confuciois said, (or maybe it was Vanilla Ice?), "Yo - yesterdays history... tommorows a mystery. Word."

"Be yourself. Everyone else is already taken." - Oscar Wilde (another great man who spent 2 years in prison for being gay)
 
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Tintin

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btw, don't let any neanderthals here tell you being gay is wrong. If we still lived by old testment laws you wouldn't be able to eat shellfish or wear clothes with two different kinds of thread. I see that you live in the u.k.. I just watched the film 'The Imitation Game' last night about Alan Turing. He was a famous British mathmatician who helped crack the Enigma code that helped the allies defeat Hitler and win WW2. His gift for helping save the world? He was arrested for being homosexual and chemically casturated. In 2013 Queen Elizabeth II granted him a full posthumous pardon for "the appaling way he was treated by the government." Be glad you live as a gay man today rather than 100 yrs ago when being gay or black could get you hung from a tree. Times are changing for the better and being young means times on your side. You have so much to live for. Like the great Buddhist philopsher Confuciois said, (or maybe it was Vanilla Ice?), "Yo - yesterdays history... tommorows a mystery. Word."

"Be yourself. Everyone else is already taken." - Oscar Wilde (another great man who spent 2 years in prison for being gay)
Terrible advice, as per usual, Tanner. You clearly don't understand God's Word. You pull the same crap as atheists, so forgive me if I think you're an atheist troll.
 
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Time for another episode of Keepin' it Real with TannerBrody, so pull up your big boy pants if you're easily offended as it's about to get pg-13 up in here.
First off, I don't know who invented the over used phrase above "Suicide is a PERMANENT solution to a TEMPORARY problem." ugh.... no it's not. My uncle commited suicide last year at the age of 61. He was suffering from brain cancer and had 6 months to live. His situation was defininatly NOT temporary. He decided to check out early instead of becoming a bed ridden shell of his former self and hopefully soon many states will follow Oregons's lead to allow physican assisted suicide. For anyone here who doesn't believe in it, just head on over to YouTube and watch the video of the guy who was bitten by a rabied bat. They recorded his situation as a case study for medical students. The treatment for rabies infection? Sedate you with enough drugs to try and calm you as you slowly pass into the most painful form of insanity imaginable as the virus literally melts your brain. I'm not going to post the link here for obvious reasons, but imagine how many people have to deal with these kinds of conditions every day around the world. If I was told that I only had 6 months to live I would go out and make the most out of my life, but if I was told that soon I would not be able to walk, talk, or bath myself and I would become a vegatable I would hope the state would allow me the dignity to end it myself.

So why am I bringing all this up? Because your problem Levi has little to do with your sexuality or lifestyle chioces and more to do with simply being a silly teenager in an immature relationship. If you had never brought up your sexuality, everyone would have just thought you were like any other 15 yr old kid arguing with their partner because that's what young angst is. My point is that someday you'll discover real world problems and look back at your teen years like they never mattered. If you told us you were hooked on drugs I would say go to rehab. If you were feeling depressed even when life is good I would say go see a psychiatrist. Just take a look at the thread here asking "What were you like in High School?" Almost everyone here on this forum went through some form of rejection or self identity issues at your age. Focus on God and yourself, join a band, play sports, travel or learn a new language, but most importantly take time to get to know yourself. Everything else will fall into place. Arguing over your XBOX or getting depressed because you found out Taylor Swift has a headache are not reasons to commit suicide.

btw, don't let any neanderthals here tell you being gay is wrong. If we still lived by old testment laws you wouldn't be able to eat shell fish or wear clothes with two different kinds of thread. I see that you live in the u.k.. I just watched the film 'The Imitation Game' last night about Alan Turing. He was a famous British mathmatician who helped crack the Enigma code that helped the allies defeat Hitler and win WW2. His gift for helping save the world? He was arrested for being homosexual and chemically casturated. In 2013 Queen Elizabeth II granted him a full posthumous pardon for "the appaling way he was treated by the government." Be glad you live as a gay man today rather than 100 yrs ago when being gay or black could get you hung from a tree. Times are changing for the better and being young means times on your side. You have so much to live for. Like the great Buddhist philopsher Confuciois said, (or maybe it was Vanilla Ice?), "Yo - yesterdays history... tommorows a mystery. Word."

"Be yourself. Everyone else is already taken." - Oscar Wilde (another great man who spent 2 years in prison for being gay)
Oh man...just wow.
 
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Tintin

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Someone needs to tan his* hide.

*Tanner's
 
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Well, just ride out the time in the Psychiatric Hospital. A lot of the mental loads will be lifted from you for a while. You'll still have plenty of time to do whatever you choose to do later. So, nothing needs to be decided right now.
 
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Levichevett.....JESUS CHRIST is your ONLY HOPE...PERIOD! We see NO mention of HIS name in your posts or no desire shown from your words that you care about your eternity. What I see coming from your brain is very self serving, twisted, and full of demonic activity. Like it or lump it, you are your own worst enemy here. Nobody else is to blame but your sad, sick choices....and there is NO room for a pity party here. You need a total deliverance, repenting from this self made drama you've placed yourself in. No other chatroom will actually care about your condition. Christians cannot force a non-CHRISTIAN (YOU) to become a Christ follower. You have to make that choice totally on your own. Once you really want to..then do more posts where we see your sincerity, otherwise, this is just fodder for a silly reality TV show or the National Enquirer back page.