thank you for your more loving approach than some others on here. However, I have spent plenty of time, years actually, in communication with god about this topic. I do not choose to feel this way. I don't act on my feelings. The word abomination in the bible meant ceremonially unclean. And guilt wasn't the right word I felt disgusted. Until God deivered me from the shame of who I am. I wish it were a choice. I don't wake up choosing to be like this but I thank god for who he made me to be, who he is making me to be, and who he changed me from being. I don't think I'm "this way" I lnow I am.
Ni Newb,
Let me ask you a question. Do you think heterosexuals wake up choosing to feel miserable about themselves? If I've always been an angry person, as far back as I can remember, as far back as my family can remember ("he's been this way even as a baby"), should I declare to the world that "this is just who I am - it's how God made me"? Would you accept that? I kind of doubt it. So if that's the case, why then should we believe that God made you that way? What proof do you have? There is no Scriptural nor scientific proof (this is a fact) that shows us people are born gay, so please explain how you "know" you're that way and how you've become certain beyond every reasonable doubt that God created you that way. I'm not trying to put the spotlight on you, but you must know deep down that you have to ask yourself these questions.
In truth, yes, you have zero need to need to be ashamed, brother, for in truth, you are fearfully and wonderfully made. (Psalm 139:14) God is love (1 John 4:8) and we are made in His image so that that is TRULY who you are -
what you are: LOVE!
You are not what you feel (which includes homosexual urges), but you are so, so much more precious and valuable than that.
Furthermore, you don't have a choice to feel the way you do - most of us get that and it's not what we mean by "choice." What we mean is the God-given ability to
reject those feelings (which, again, you don't have control over) that arise within you and not to act upon them. As a Christian, you just have to be open to the possibility that if the Bible is right, then something is wrong. The same way there is something wrong within a man or woman who constantly wants to belittle others - or a man or woman who constantly lies, steals, or kills. That is not our natural state, to do things like that. God made us perfect but we fell from that perfection. Why each individual falls is different, but let's not mistake our fallen state for who we really are - it would be a grave mistake on our end - on your end.
You said you don't act on your feelings, but then you seem convinced that having gay urges is okay? If it isn't a sin, why then wouldn't you act on your "natural", "God-given" feelings? Can you clarify that for me, please? If not acting on your feelings means that you have an instinctive desire to engage in homosexual behavior, but choose not to, then that's a good thing and you are no different than the rest of the Christian world. As mentioned in the site above (which I would hope you would take the time to read - it really isn't that long), God never told Adam and Eve not to be tempted, He essentially told them not to act on that temptation. When they fell, it was because they
acted, not because they were tempted. Very important to understand. As Christians, we're not told to put an end to these temptations that arise within all of us, as again, even Adam, in his purest state, in the kingdom of heaven, in the presence of God Himself, was tempted, but our duty as Christians is to hate and reject and fight against these temptations. If this is what you're doing, then you are on the right path back home. If not, then in order to enter into the kingdom to dwell with your Master, you
must repent.
Don't be deceived by groups like NALT, brother, for they have, "...turned their ears away from the truth and turned aside to myths." The truly enlightened Church, the Apostles, the Saints, and the monks, for the past 2,000 years have not been mistaken, those who are operating by the authority of the spirit of this age are mistaken. They are truly unenlightened laymen that have turned God's mystical and divinely-inspired word into an intellectual exercise and thus have sadly deceived many, many people who are desperately in seek of truth. They have done so because they don't KNOW the truth and so they speak based on what their "their itching ears want to hear." The Apostles didn't do that - they weren't knowledgeable people - as even the Pharisees knew they (the Apostles) were "unlearned men", but they were Spiritual. They didn't know everything they knew because they had studied their days away, but because they had been "sanctified by the Father's truth" (John 17:16-18) and that truth, over and over again,
explicitly tells us that practicing homosexuality will strip from you the entrance into the kingdom. Not
having urges to practice, but actually
practicing. Very important distinction. And this is not a matter to take lightly, brother, as your only objective is to do just that: to
enter into the kingdom!
Please, ask God to give you a heart that does not seek its own desires, but to do the will of the Father in heaven. You have to ask for things like this, newb, and don't trust yourself. I'm telling you. Put yourself on trial and question your motives and your feelings and whether or not they are of God or of the flesh. Ask the Father, in the name of Jesus Christ, to place your will in line with His and just stay receptive.
God bless you.