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So there was this girl. She was gorgeous. I didn't know her, but I had quite a few friends who did know her. I guess she went to a school about 20 minutes away from where I am, and then she moved far out of town.
She was a model, I don't know how far she actually was as far as her career in modeling, but I do know for sure that her career would taken off very quickly had she stuck with it. To me she seemed like she had everything that she could have wanted, but then again I didn't know her and didn't know what she was going through.
She took her own life on September 6th. I honestly feel so guilty... I don't know why, I didn't know her. She was a beautiful 17 year old girl and I bet if I did know her and was friends with her I doubt I would have known that she was going through so much pain that she had to do this. It makes me want to cry just thinking about her because when I do I think of a song, 'Coming Down' by Five Finger Death Punch. The video shows two teens who kill themselves for not having close friendships. At the end of the video there is a phrase that pops up "One friend can save a life." I honestly doubt that this was her case, I am sure she had many many friends. I just can't stop thinking about her, and when I do I think of some songs that some of my favorite bands sing about suicide. I am holding back tears as I am writing this.
I feel so guilty, maybe if I knew who she was, or went to the same school and became friends with her, I could have saved her life. I know that things happen for a reason, I just don't understand what it is that is making me feel so guilty that I wasn't able to try to help her. I have known some friends who have friends who have committed suicide before and I've never felt the way I do for this girl. I don't know what to do, I've tried asking God why I am feeling this way for this girl but I'm just not getting an answer.
I didn't know where to go, or who to talk to about this. I have thought about her every day since I found out what happened on the 8th. I just wish that I did know her and was one of her close friends so that I wouldn't have to feel this guiltyness for a reason that I honestly don't know. I don't even know what to do for myself, I wish there was a way that I was able to talk to her.
She was a model, I don't know how far she actually was as far as her career in modeling, but I do know for sure that her career would taken off very quickly had she stuck with it. To me she seemed like she had everything that she could have wanted, but then again I didn't know her and didn't know what she was going through.
She took her own life on September 6th. I honestly feel so guilty... I don't know why, I didn't know her. She was a beautiful 17 year old girl and I bet if I did know her and was friends with her I doubt I would have known that she was going through so much pain that she had to do this. It makes me want to cry just thinking about her because when I do I think of a song, 'Coming Down' by Five Finger Death Punch. The video shows two teens who kill themselves for not having close friendships. At the end of the video there is a phrase that pops up "One friend can save a life." I honestly doubt that this was her case, I am sure she had many many friends. I just can't stop thinking about her, and when I do I think of some songs that some of my favorite bands sing about suicide. I am holding back tears as I am writing this.
I feel so guilty, maybe if I knew who she was, or went to the same school and became friends with her, I could have saved her life. I know that things happen for a reason, I just don't understand what it is that is making me feel so guilty that I wasn't able to try to help her. I have known some friends who have friends who have committed suicide before and I've never felt the way I do for this girl. I don't know what to do, I've tried asking God why I am feeling this way for this girl but I'm just not getting an answer.
I didn't know where to go, or who to talk to about this. I have thought about her every day since I found out what happened on the 8th. I just wish that I did know her and was one of her close friends so that I wouldn't have to feel this guiltyness for a reason that I honestly don't know. I don't even know what to do for myself, I wish there was a way that I was able to talk to her.