I've had enough. I'm dragging God's name to the ground, blaspheming against him, etc. I want to stop, but I feel like I'm too far deep for anyone to save me. I don't know. I just feel like a failure. I wonder how things would have been if I were not born
I know how it feels,I went thru the same exact thing this year and got pushed back six months becuz of it. But first don't bad mouth God becuz he is good and has done nothing to us. I was talking bad against him and I was saying horrible things,but my pastor talked to me and said why am I talking about God for and I said all these reasons but then I realize God had nothing to do with it. He did nothing to me,and also u always have a chance for salvation until Jesus second. Coming happens. But until then the door of repentance is always open,the reason u feel like u can't get saved is becuz the devil wants us to go to hell with him,becuz God didn't give him a chance to b saved. When he fell God didn't help,but when Adam and Eve fell God came to save us and shed his precious Blood for us 1st Peter 1:18 . Tell the devil God loves me and hates u I can b saved and u can't. The devil will tell u remember ur past and the sins u committed but u tell him right back yeah but I can b forgiven and remember ur future where ur going for eternity, God bless u I wish u the best. I will pray