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I pray that you live in a way that makes you happy. I have many gay Christian friends who tried to be straight and they were miserable. I believe that God made you the way that you are and wouldn't want you to try and change yourself. Research has shown that gay people don't chose this life style, they are born gay. God loves you, so it shouldn't matter what anyone else thinks about you.
God bless
God bless
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Mike,
I have come through many situations in life, one being involved with other women. I fell away from the word of God and did exactly as it is written in James 1:14-17
[SUP]14 [/SUP]But each person is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desire. [SUP]15 [/SUP]Then desire when it has conceived gives birth to sin, and sin when it is fully grown brings forth death.
[SUP]16 [/SUP]Do not be deceived, my beloved brothers.17 Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.
The key is recognizing the enemy wants to destroy you. Christ knows your struggles and your flesh is constantly battling against the holy spirit. You must always pray and put on the whole amour of God .
Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore, put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground and after you have done everything, to stand." Ephesians 6:11-13, NIV
To be carnally minded brings death , spiritual death
Romans 8:5-8
Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.6 The mind of sinful man is death but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; 7 the sinful min is hostile to God.It does not submit to God's law, nor can it do so. 8 Those controlled by the sinful nature cannot please God.
I came through only through the GRACE of God... Remember , we all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. Romans 3:23
Pray, and pray and through the name of Jesus Christ submit your heart to him and you will over come. No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. Romans 8:37
blessings and peace be yours my brother.
I have come through many situations in life, one being involved with other women. I fell away from the word of God and did exactly as it is written in James 1:14-17
[SUP]14 [/SUP]But each person is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desire. [SUP]15 [/SUP]Then desire when it has conceived gives birth to sin, and sin when it is fully grown brings forth death.
[SUP]16 [/SUP]Do not be deceived, my beloved brothers.17 Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.
The key is recognizing the enemy wants to destroy you. Christ knows your struggles and your flesh is constantly battling against the holy spirit. You must always pray and put on the whole amour of God .
Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore, put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground and after you have done everything, to stand." Ephesians 6:11-13, NIV
Romans 8:5-8
Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.6 The mind of sinful man is death but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; 7 the sinful min is hostile to God.It does not submit to God's law, nor can it do so. 8 Those controlled by the sinful nature cannot please God.
I came through only through the GRACE of God... Remember , we all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. Romans 3:23
Pray, and pray and through the name of Jesus Christ submit your heart to him and you will over come. No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. Romans 8:37
blessings and peace be yours my brother.
K
Well - there's nothing in the bible except for Genesis 19:5, Judges 19:22, 1 Corinthians 6:9-10, Leviticus 18:21-22, Leviticus 20:13, Romans 1:26-27, and 1 Timothy 1:8-10. But you knew these thngs didn't you Mike? This is why you are convicted to change. You ask a legitimate question but our answers are folly to the wisdom of our God of Israel. However! A good start is www.settingcaptivesfree.com and the knowledge that all things are possible through our Lord Jesus Christ where there is ultimate victory.
Be advised Mike, you are at war. Penalities are great for all of us. Remember that through His Grace we have salvation and forgiveness of OURSELVES the sinner, but the sin continues unforgiven. The consequences of that sin are great and sometimes beyond measure.
Be advised Mike, you are at war. Penalities are great for all of us. Remember that through His Grace we have salvation and forgiveness of OURSELVES the sinner, but the sin continues unforgiven. The consequences of that sin are great and sometimes beyond measure.
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Question. Is homosexuality walking in the flesh or in the spirit of Christ? Please Read Romans chapters 1 and Romans chapter 8 and
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God's Wrath on Unrighteousness
[SUP]18 [/SUP]For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who by their unrighteousness suppress the truth. [SUP]19 [/SUP]For what can be known about God is plain to them, because God has shown it to them. [SUP]20 [/SUP]For his invisible attributes, namely, his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world,[SUP][a][/SUP] in the things that have been made. So they are without excuse. [SUP]21 [/SUP]For although they knew God, they did not honor him as God or give thanks to him, but they became futile in their thinking, and their foolish hearts were darkened. [SUP]22 [/SUP]Claiming to be wise, they became fools, [SUP]23 [/SUP]and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images resembling mortal man and birds and animals and creeping things.
[SUP]24 [/SUP]Therefore God gave them up in the lusts of their hearts to impurity, to the dishonoring of their bodies among themselves, [SUP]25 [/SUP]because they exchanged the truth about God for a lie and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever! Amen.
[SUP]26 [/SUP]For this reason God gave them up to dishonorable passions. For their women exchanged natural relations for those that are contrary to nature; [SUP]27 [/SUP]and the men likewise gave up natural relations with women and were consumed with passion for one another, men committing shameless acts with men and receiving in themselves the due penalty for their error.
[SUP]28 [/SUP]And since they did not see fit to acknowledge God, God gave them up to a debased mind to do what ought not to be done. [SUP]29 [/SUP]They were filled with all manner of unrighteousness, evil, covetousness, malice. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, maliciousness. They are gossips, [SUP]30 [/SUP]slanderers, haters of God, insolent, haughty, boastful, inventors of evil, disobedient to parents, [SUP]31 [/SUP]foolish, faithless, heartless, ruthless. [SUP]32 [/SUP]Though they know God's righteous decree that those who practice such things deserve to die, they not only do them but give approval to those who practice them.
Now , Romans 8:1-15
Romans 8:1-15
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Life in the Spirit
8 There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.[SUP][a][/SUP] [SUP]2 [/SUP]For the law of the Spirit of life has set you[SUP][b][/SUP] free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. [SUP]3 [/SUP]For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do. By sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin,[SUP][c][/SUP] he condemned sin in the flesh, [SUP]4 [/SUP]in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. [SUP]5 [/SUP]For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit. [SUP]6 [/SUP]For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. [SUP]7 [/SUP]For the mind that is set on the flesh is hostile to God, for it does not submit to God's law; indeed, it cannot. [SUP]8 [/SUP]Those who are in the flesh cannot please God.
[SUP]9 [/SUP]You, however, are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if in fact the Spirit of God dwells in you. Anyone who does not have the Spirit of Christ does not belong to him. [SUP]10 [/SUP]But if Christ is in you, although the body is dead because of sin, the Spirit is life because of righteousness. [SUP]11 [/SUP]If the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he who raised Christ Jesus[SUP][d][/SUP] from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit who dwells in you.
Heirs with Christ
[SUP]12 [/SUP]So then, brothers,[SUP][e][/SUP] we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh. [SUP]13 [/SUP]For if you live according to the flesh you will die, but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. [SUP]14 [/SUP]For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons[SUP][f][/SUP] of God. [SUP]15 [/SUP]For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, “Abba! Father
1 Corinthians 6:9-20
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[SUP]9 [/SUP]Or do you not know that the unrighteous[SUP][a][/SUP] will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality,[SUP][b][/SUP] [SUP]10 [/SUP]nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. [SUP]11 [/SUP]And such were some of you. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.
Flee Sexual Immorality
[SUP]12 [/SUP]“All things are lawful for me,” but not all things are helpful. “All things are lawful for me,” but I will not be dominated by anything. [SUP]13 [/SUP]“Food is meant for the stomach and the stomach for food”—and God will destroy both one and the other. The body is not meant for sexual immorality, but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body. [SUP]14 [/SUP]And God raised the Lord and will also raise us up by his power. [SUP]15 [/SUP]Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ? Shall I then take the members of Christ and make them members of a prostitute? Never! [SUP]16 [/SUP]Or do you not know that he who is joined[SUP][c][/SUP] to a prostitute becomes one body with her? For, as it is written, “The two will become one flesh.” [SUP]17 [/SUP]But he who is joined to the Lord becomes one spirit with him. [SUP]18 [/SUP]Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin[SUP][d][/SUP] a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body. [SUP]19 [/SUP]Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, [SUP]20 [/SUP]for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.
So Glorify GOD in your BODY... AMEN!
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God's Wrath on Unrighteousness
[SUP]18 [/SUP]For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who by their unrighteousness suppress the truth. [SUP]19 [/SUP]For what can be known about God is plain to them, because God has shown it to them. [SUP]20 [/SUP]For his invisible attributes, namely, his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world,[SUP][a][/SUP] in the things that have been made. So they are without excuse. [SUP]21 [/SUP]For although they knew God, they did not honor him as God or give thanks to him, but they became futile in their thinking, and their foolish hearts were darkened. [SUP]22 [/SUP]Claiming to be wise, they became fools, [SUP]23 [/SUP]and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images resembling mortal man and birds and animals and creeping things.
[SUP]24 [/SUP]Therefore God gave them up in the lusts of their hearts to impurity, to the dishonoring of their bodies among themselves, [SUP]25 [/SUP]because they exchanged the truth about God for a lie and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever! Amen.
[SUP]26 [/SUP]For this reason God gave them up to dishonorable passions. For their women exchanged natural relations for those that are contrary to nature; [SUP]27 [/SUP]and the men likewise gave up natural relations with women and were consumed with passion for one another, men committing shameless acts with men and receiving in themselves the due penalty for their error.
[SUP]28 [/SUP]And since they did not see fit to acknowledge God, God gave them up to a debased mind to do what ought not to be done. [SUP]29 [/SUP]They were filled with all manner of unrighteousness, evil, covetousness, malice. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, maliciousness. They are gossips, [SUP]30 [/SUP]slanderers, haters of God, insolent, haughty, boastful, inventors of evil, disobedient to parents, [SUP]31 [/SUP]foolish, faithless, heartless, ruthless. [SUP]32 [/SUP]Though they know God's righteous decree that those who practice such things deserve to die, they not only do them but give approval to those who practice them.
Now , Romans 8:1-15
Romans 8:1-15
English Standard Version (ESV)
Life in the Spirit
8 There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.[SUP][a][/SUP] [SUP]2 [/SUP]For the law of the Spirit of life has set you[SUP][b][/SUP] free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. [SUP]3 [/SUP]For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do. By sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin,[SUP][c][/SUP] he condemned sin in the flesh, [SUP]4 [/SUP]in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. [SUP]5 [/SUP]For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit. [SUP]6 [/SUP]For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. [SUP]7 [/SUP]For the mind that is set on the flesh is hostile to God, for it does not submit to God's law; indeed, it cannot. [SUP]8 [/SUP]Those who are in the flesh cannot please God.
[SUP]9 [/SUP]You, however, are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if in fact the Spirit of God dwells in you. Anyone who does not have the Spirit of Christ does not belong to him. [SUP]10 [/SUP]But if Christ is in you, although the body is dead because of sin, the Spirit is life because of righteousness. [SUP]11 [/SUP]If the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he who raised Christ Jesus[SUP][d][/SUP] from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit who dwells in you.
Heirs with Christ
[SUP]12 [/SUP]So then, brothers,[SUP][e][/SUP] we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh. [SUP]13 [/SUP]For if you live according to the flesh you will die, but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. [SUP]14 [/SUP]For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons[SUP][f][/SUP] of God. [SUP]15 [/SUP]For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, “Abba! Father
1 Corinthians 6:9-20
English Standard Version (ESV)
[SUP]9 [/SUP]Or do you not know that the unrighteous[SUP][a][/SUP] will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality,[SUP][b][/SUP] [SUP]10 [/SUP]nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God. [SUP]11 [/SUP]And such were some of you. But you were washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ and by the Spirit of our God.
Flee Sexual Immorality
[SUP]12 [/SUP]“All things are lawful for me,” but not all things are helpful. “All things are lawful for me,” but I will not be dominated by anything. [SUP]13 [/SUP]“Food is meant for the stomach and the stomach for food”—and God will destroy both one and the other. The body is not meant for sexual immorality, but for the Lord, and the Lord for the body. [SUP]14 [/SUP]And God raised the Lord and will also raise us up by his power. [SUP]15 [/SUP]Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ? Shall I then take the members of Christ and make them members of a prostitute? Never! [SUP]16 [/SUP]Or do you not know that he who is joined[SUP][c][/SUP] to a prostitute becomes one body with her? For, as it is written, “The two will become one flesh.” [SUP]17 [/SUP]But he who is joined to the Lord becomes one spirit with him. [SUP]18 [/SUP]Flee from sexual immorality. Every other sin[SUP][d][/SUP] a person commits is outside the body, but the sexually immoral person sins against his own body. [SUP]19 [/SUP]Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, [SUP]20 [/SUP]for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body.
So Glorify GOD in your BODY... AMEN!
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It is true that God came to save the unsaved in a lost and dying world... a world lost and dying because of sin. However, we as Christians are commanded to live in faith and purity. There is no purity in following the lusts of the flesh... be it homosexuality or heterosexuality outside of the bounds of marriage. Only a recognition of God's will and His power for you to harness as a Christian will help you overcome sin (of all kinds). It requires focusing on HIM and not yourself. You must will to do that which is well pleasing in His sight through Jesus Christ, to whom be the glory forever.
K
hi mike: welcome and God bless you for seeking out Gods will for you. mike, im so glad you are seeking a better path for yourself. mike , we are not all blessed with the same breaks, we are not all burden with the same burdens and many times it just doesn't seem fair at all. I cant answer the why of it all. you are on the right path, do not stop nor change directions!! try to always think of this, imagine we are standing before Christ for judgment on judgment day, what is the worst words Jesus could say to any man/soul?? for me its this (turn from me, I never know you) at that point, what is left for us??? we would literally be in a world of hurt but no longer in the world. once we are dead we cant even kill ourselves to escape damnation, not before death/not after death!! for GOD SAKE don't even think of such a thing cause that's no answer (now watch my words and intent get twisted by others when they read this) mike you already must know even though I`m straight I`m no saint, but I want to be with Jesus my lord/my perfect example/my only judge/ my savior/ but I still need to make him my master, (I also am trying). with him as my guide along with Holly Ghost at least im in the best of company and so are you mike!! please take time to read your bible/select an easy to understand version of king james and take it home, you need moral support, a lot of it but always remember be careful of man, im am shocked at how many people claim Christianity and then run after man and the world with there sayings/statements wanting to be patted on the back and accepted in modern mans world. take and reject advise based on your own instincts but always make the bible the your source for exactness and total truth!!! mike: I am here for you if you want me to be. Christianity should never be forced onto anyone, Jesus dosent force it on any man and he is the head of the church!! he came for us sinners (not the righteous) any man who wants the truth shall hear his voice!! please put me on your friend list and I`ll do the same, at least your not out to sue Christ church. bless you in your seeking how to change, be strong/and determined and are you sure your parents would not understand??? have you considered giving them that chance??? I`m a father and the bottom line as a father is (I love my kids) and would maybe need time to understand but I could not forsake my children cause I love them, give them a break and that chance!! try it, ok??? may the Holly spirit guide you, pray and ask for him to guide you in Christ name. amen??? singed: kenj a friend!!
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i dont want to be gay but its hard not to.. what do i do? i dont want to talk to my parents or anyone i know about it becaus ei dont want them to know.. 
help please...
help please...
i dont want to be gay but its hard not to.. what do i do? i dont want to talk to my parents or anyone i know about it becaus ei dont want them to know.. help please...
help please...
Remnantofgod.org/salvation.htm
God bless
Thank You all for helping me! Ill be sure to get more into God and give it all to him! That really makes me feel better to know that there is change and its through Jesus! Thank you!
Kinda makes it obvious that those who are trying to discourage are speaking from inspiration of the devil. Is in't he the only being who would discourage every man to go to Christ? And if Christ is not able to help, then how the Bible says He is the Saviour OF THE WORLD?! He can't be the Saviour of the world, if Christ is powerless to help certain type of people. He would be called in the Bible "the Saviour of certain people" but calling Him "saviour of the world" is a lie, unless He truly is the Saviour of the world.
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It's absolutely ok that you were born gay. Even if it is a sin, it's no biggy - you can still please God by doing good in the world. You can spread His word, you can make the lives of his creations better. Homosexuality doesn't change any of that. Live free of guilt, because you are doing nothing wrong and God is loving and forgiving.
C
I know you are just being nice to the OP, but I have to point out that this isn't Biblical.
If this is true, it would mean that if I had the carnal desire to cheat on my wife, I could say "God made me this way and I don't think He wants me to change, so I am going to go through with my desires and have sex with another woman.".
There is no way God wants me to indulge in my sinful desires. Jesus said you have to "Deny yourself"- I think this could be a "life scripture" for many homosexuals and straight people who struggle with sexual temptations.
Except that it is a biggy when you consider that "homosexuals... will not inherit the Kingdom of God." - 1 Corinthians 6:9. I think you might agree that missing out of heaven is a biggy.
Some are a temptation for me personally as well. I do not want to give up my place in God's Kingdom just for the sake of some sin! It is a big deal if you are giving up Heaven just for some short term earthly pleasure indulgence which usually leads to destruction anyway.
If this is true, it would mean that if I had the carnal desire to cheat on my wife, I could say "God made me this way and I don't think He wants me to change, so I am going to go through with my desires and have sex with another woman.".
There is no way God wants me to indulge in my sinful desires. Jesus said you have to "Deny yourself"- I think this could be a "life scripture" for many homosexuals and straight people who struggle with sexual temptations.
Except that it is a biggy when you consider that "homosexuals... will not inherit the Kingdom of God." - 1 Corinthians 6:9. I think you might agree that missing out of heaven is a biggy.
Some are a temptation for me personally as well. I do not want to give up my place in God's Kingdom just for the sake of some sin! It is a big deal if you are giving up Heaven just for some short term earthly pleasure indulgence which usually leads to destruction anyway.
C
How does a prostitute overcome the indwelling sin inside them? You do have indwelling sin inside you. You need to be cleansed and renewed in your mind and body. And just because you ask God to take this away from you, it doesn't mean that you will never be tempted again. Probably on the contrary. You will probably be tempted more than ever, as Satan will want you to go back into his ways. Repent, and God to change and cleanse your life and mind, and keep away from this sin.
M
Hello Mike,
First of all I want to commend you for your honesty and courage. I know from experience it is not an easy thing to open up about having homosexual desires.
I've struggled with those desires big time, and what's worse, I've also given in to them. Worse because doing that made the fight much more fierce.
I'm not going to repeat all the verses, but it is clear from scripture that homosexuality is not in the will of God. The only right place for couples to come together and become one flesh is a covenant relationship between a man and a woman, what we call marriage. By the way, there is no such thing as "gay-marriage". That's why I didn't say 'heterosexual marriage' because marriage IS by definition heterosexual.
Anyway, let me not get side-tracked.
In my own life, I see homosexual desires developed as a result of very deep brokenness, of sins committed against me:
First, I never bonded with my mom. She had totally buried all her pain before I was born due to extremely hard conditions and great loss (my first two brothers had died before I was born), so she had to bury her entire emotional life. When a baby cannot bond with the mother when she's not emotionally available, a deep inner sense of emptiness is the result. As if there is nobody home on the inside.
Second, my dad had learned and honestly thought his children had to fear him. So after very few, very harsh beatings (from age 7 onwards), I grew to be extremely afraid of my father. His presence was a constant threat as I grew up. So I never identified with him. Quite the contrary actually. And to really connect with a dad is sooo important for a boy.
Thirdly, my brother blamed me of being homosexual, again at age 7 (my brother was 12). That day he had spied on me and an older friend as we were playing some games initiated by that friend. In the 'game' we had to open our trousers and 'show what we had'. Not a big deal in itself. It was a bit exciting and that friend had initiated, maybe less innocent, things in the past (we both grew up on farms so, we were early on exposed to a lot of stuff, and the sometimes violent mating between animals). But as my brother said those things in an angry way, shame, guilt, a sense of being different/inferior and fear he would tell it to my parents flooded into my life. What my brother said had a very deep and bad impact. Things became much worse as that older friend continued to try doing those 'sexual games' with me. On the one hand I was very excited about them. I guess it tapped into my need for a friend, as I was growing more and more lonely.
We didn't talk at all about how we were doing at home. There was no communication about deeper, emotional things at all. Our interactions were very superficial. There were no direct expressions of affection or vulnerability. So on the one hand I was looking forward for the initiatives of that friend. On the other hand it made me feel very, very guilty, having the words of my brother in the back of my mind, words I had held true immediately. So I almost always blocked/ I froze when that friend initiated another 'attempt' of playing a sexual oriented 'game'.
Fourthly and lastly, I experienced a lot of teasing/pestering. As I child, my 5 year older brother for years belittled me, mocked me, ridiculed me. He was taller and stronger, so there was very little I knew to counter this. It was very damaging for me on the inside. He always repeated something bad about my looks, and it made me feel very, very insecure. I grew so mad at my brother I clearly remember I was ready to murder him one time (around age 11), holding the poker. It was the one time in life I was in a stronger position, and I wanted to kill him with everything inside of me. I just didn't do it because I knew it was very wrong, but the desire to do it was totally there.
Later on in school (age 12 to 18) I was also rejected and put down during most of the time by most of my classmates and some others. It actually grew worse and at the end of my years in school and I felt totally excluded. When my brother lost his interest in mocking me as he had grown older, the kids in school were taking over. So my teenage years were utterly lonely. At puberty I was immediately addicted to masturbation with homosexual desires.
So, as a result of all this I grew to be a very insecure boy. I experienced very little love, had almost no healthy connection with my peers, parents, nobody basically. I was not in touch with my emotions or desires. To survive I had badly disconnected from them. I kept the struggle with my sexuality for myself. Only after a very deep depression in my mid 20s, I opened up about it to a few trusted friends. Later I would fall in love with a guy and start a relationship with him (age 27).
Until then, I only knew two options in how to deal with those sexual desires: either hide it and struggle on my own with addiction to masturbation in secret, either give in to those desires and live it out.
I now know of a third path: the one of restoration, of becoming the person, the real me God had created in Christ. It is the path of continually 'becoming' in Jesus Christ.
The first few years of my restoration, very, very deep pain surfaced. I can't tell you how many many tears there were as all the pain that was bottled up on the inside was starting to be released.
I started to discover my real gifts, which were very different from the ones I thought I had. I started to build healthy relationships. I started to open up to God and others about all the pain. I started to forgive and receive forgiveness. I started to receive love from my heavenly Father and started to love Him back. I started to love and receive love from treasured brothers and sisters in Christ in healthy ways.
And I'm still very much in process. I had and have to be absolutely ruthless in dealing with every possible way that could lead to sin. And I also had to renew my thinking, and all of this is still going on.
You know Mike, we are soooooo loved. I cannot put it into words. Just look at the cross. The Lord loves us so much, we are so precious to Him. In fact, His love is so strong, it is strong enough to love us out of our sin, as we respond to His love through repentance and clinging to Him.
He is here. He is loving you right now. It's up to us to be there/here for Him as well, and open our hearts for Him, every day, and focus on Him. He is totally able to bring forth His original design in you as you let Him.
And that design is definitely not "gay".
Let His love and the love of brothers and sisters in Christ transform you.
You, or any other readers, may always contact me through sending me a message.
Much love in Christ,
God bless you,
Marc
Father's Love Letter Main Page
First of all I want to commend you for your honesty and courage. I know from experience it is not an easy thing to open up about having homosexual desires.
I've struggled with those desires big time, and what's worse, I've also given in to them. Worse because doing that made the fight much more fierce.
I'm not going to repeat all the verses, but it is clear from scripture that homosexuality is not in the will of God. The only right place for couples to come together and become one flesh is a covenant relationship between a man and a woman, what we call marriage. By the way, there is no such thing as "gay-marriage". That's why I didn't say 'heterosexual marriage' because marriage IS by definition heterosexual.
Anyway, let me not get side-tracked.
In my own life, I see homosexual desires developed as a result of very deep brokenness, of sins committed against me:
First, I never bonded with my mom. She had totally buried all her pain before I was born due to extremely hard conditions and great loss (my first two brothers had died before I was born), so she had to bury her entire emotional life. When a baby cannot bond with the mother when she's not emotionally available, a deep inner sense of emptiness is the result. As if there is nobody home on the inside.
Second, my dad had learned and honestly thought his children had to fear him. So after very few, very harsh beatings (from age 7 onwards), I grew to be extremely afraid of my father. His presence was a constant threat as I grew up. So I never identified with him. Quite the contrary actually. And to really connect with a dad is sooo important for a boy.
Thirdly, my brother blamed me of being homosexual, again at age 7 (my brother was 12). That day he had spied on me and an older friend as we were playing some games initiated by that friend. In the 'game' we had to open our trousers and 'show what we had'. Not a big deal in itself. It was a bit exciting and that friend had initiated, maybe less innocent, things in the past (we both grew up on farms so, we were early on exposed to a lot of stuff, and the sometimes violent mating between animals). But as my brother said those things in an angry way, shame, guilt, a sense of being different/inferior and fear he would tell it to my parents flooded into my life. What my brother said had a very deep and bad impact. Things became much worse as that older friend continued to try doing those 'sexual games' with me. On the one hand I was very excited about them. I guess it tapped into my need for a friend, as I was growing more and more lonely.
We didn't talk at all about how we were doing at home. There was no communication about deeper, emotional things at all. Our interactions were very superficial. There were no direct expressions of affection or vulnerability. So on the one hand I was looking forward for the initiatives of that friend. On the other hand it made me feel very, very guilty, having the words of my brother in the back of my mind, words I had held true immediately. So I almost always blocked/ I froze when that friend initiated another 'attempt' of playing a sexual oriented 'game'.
Fourthly and lastly, I experienced a lot of teasing/pestering. As I child, my 5 year older brother for years belittled me, mocked me, ridiculed me. He was taller and stronger, so there was very little I knew to counter this. It was very damaging for me on the inside. He always repeated something bad about my looks, and it made me feel very, very insecure. I grew so mad at my brother I clearly remember I was ready to murder him one time (around age 11), holding the poker. It was the one time in life I was in a stronger position, and I wanted to kill him with everything inside of me. I just didn't do it because I knew it was very wrong, but the desire to do it was totally there.
Later on in school (age 12 to 18) I was also rejected and put down during most of the time by most of my classmates and some others. It actually grew worse and at the end of my years in school and I felt totally excluded. When my brother lost his interest in mocking me as he had grown older, the kids in school were taking over. So my teenage years were utterly lonely. At puberty I was immediately addicted to masturbation with homosexual desires.
So, as a result of all this I grew to be a very insecure boy. I experienced very little love, had almost no healthy connection with my peers, parents, nobody basically. I was not in touch with my emotions or desires. To survive I had badly disconnected from them. I kept the struggle with my sexuality for myself. Only after a very deep depression in my mid 20s, I opened up about it to a few trusted friends. Later I would fall in love with a guy and start a relationship with him (age 27).
Until then, I only knew two options in how to deal with those sexual desires: either hide it and struggle on my own with addiction to masturbation in secret, either give in to those desires and live it out.
I now know of a third path: the one of restoration, of becoming the person, the real me God had created in Christ. It is the path of continually 'becoming' in Jesus Christ.
The first few years of my restoration, very, very deep pain surfaced. I can't tell you how many many tears there were as all the pain that was bottled up on the inside was starting to be released.
I started to discover my real gifts, which were very different from the ones I thought I had. I started to build healthy relationships. I started to open up to God and others about all the pain. I started to forgive and receive forgiveness. I started to receive love from my heavenly Father and started to love Him back. I started to love and receive love from treasured brothers and sisters in Christ in healthy ways.
And I'm still very much in process. I had and have to be absolutely ruthless in dealing with every possible way that could lead to sin. And I also had to renew my thinking, and all of this is still going on.
You know Mike, we are soooooo loved. I cannot put it into words. Just look at the cross. The Lord loves us so much, we are so precious to Him. In fact, His love is so strong, it is strong enough to love us out of our sin, as we respond to His love through repentance and clinging to Him.
He is here. He is loving you right now. It's up to us to be there/here for Him as well, and open our hearts for Him, every day, and focus on Him. He is totally able to bring forth His original design in you as you let Him.
And that design is definitely not "gay".
Let His love and the love of brothers and sisters in Christ transform you.
You, or any other readers, may always contact me through sending me a message.
Much love in Christ,
God bless you,
Marc
Father's Love Letter Main Page
Mike I'm glad you asked. First off I want to explain as to where this comes from, this should help you to discover roots for it. Now I'm not going to go into the in-depth spiritual warfare part of it. I'd rather just try to help you first. Understand that homosexualism is coming out of lust. In order to fight lust you need to weapons. Truth and LOVE. With these you can conquer. Understand that the Truth is that God loves you. That Christ designed you completely. He made every part of you for a purpose. Jesus said every hair on your body is counted. So every part of you is special. I want you to accept this. I want you to understand that homosexualism is a lie. A very effective lie...true. But still a lie. And because of this your very desires and feelings are against you. In order for you to break free of this lie, you must pray for God and ask Him the following... that He should break any soul ties on you that have a negative impact on you. Secondly ask God to forgive you any curses and sins either committed by yourself of those from whom you inherited, specifically those concerning LUST and LIES. Next you should pray that God should open your heart for TRUE LOVE. For true love is all about giving. While Lust is all about receiving and transactions. Accept that Christ gave Himself as TRUTH for you completely in LOVE, so that you no longer have to fear the sin. Pray for God that He will bind your desires to His will and that you will no longer have desires for the same gender. Ask Him that He should create a LOVE in your heart for those of the opposite gender as was His intention.
Pray this in the NAME of JESUS CHRIST and then ask that God should seal you with the BLOOD of JESUS concerning this.
Do this and you shall be healed.
Pray this in the NAME of JESUS CHRIST and then ask that God should seal you with the BLOOD of JESUS concerning this.
Do this and you shall be healed.