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For someone who will actaully listen to me: Im not being over dramatic with my title: Im 18, and for 18 years I been silent: Not anymore: Long story short, I have a mom: and not a Dad: never existed in my life: I have a sister who I never knew: Only when I was 1: and, never really knew her: and could care less about her: Cause she dont want to know me: but, anyway: I only have my mom, and to tell you the turth: I never felt loved by her: She never encourged me of my dreams or my goals, and when she does she tears me to peices, like Im not worth nothting: Like, I want to write a book, she puts me down, and says she doesn't want to read my book, and she calls it a demonatic book: when it's a novel, aout a girl who learns about love and family: And when I want to become a cook, she tells me not to cook in her house, and calls my food rap, even when two days later, she says it's the "best food: and calls me a good cook: everytime I do something inmy lie, I end up cryign by her: i cried when I made my first meal, cause she teared me to peices, and I even collaped out of the pain: and how bad she huretted me: In middle school, I rememerbered crying in the scholl bathroom with a another parent, cause cause it was my first christmas performance, and she hullianted me in front of eveyone: and I felt worthless: She has a way of putting me down, and making me feel like im trash: She picks my body imag: Maybe that's why Im inscuree: about my hair: whom she says it looks like crap all the tmie, and my face, and my eyebrows: that's why I always want to hid my hair when im around her: How can I have a realtionship with someone who doesn;t like me? She
s rude to me: And dont say that's becuase she loves me: I did some pretty terrrible things: forcing me to do: I ate out of the trash: and she forced me to eat a bagel out f t: she throws my phone in the hallway, without leaving it on the table: where I can see it: and she expets me to be her mind reader when I walk past her, and she has a plate in her hand, and she expexts me to just give hr food: with out being nice, and asking me to put the plate away: She has a favorite word she likes to use: She thinks im this mentally ill girl, who's afarid of every little thing, even people: She thinks I have a deep root of fear: I tell her she's a lair but she doesnt care: I dont have fear: If I did, I wont purpse my dreams, and my goals If I had fear: so she's a lari on that: and, she also calls me demonic: When Im a born again believer: Im demonic with my demonic book: She thinks im this evil person, who's selfish ,when Im always helping pele, always encouring, and making someones day: She doesnt know that; and I feel she doesnt hav to: It's really furustering, and terrible: I dont have a mother: Not when she send me this ugly text yestureday: " FROM NOW ON DO NOT TALK TO ME UNLESS I TALK TO YOU TEXT IF YOU NEED TO TALK" and she's serious: everytime I try to have a convo with her, she says not to talk to her: but she understands with a text.... how sick is that ? So I have duck tape on my mouth, and she can only talk to me: She making my life a liv hell, and i dont know what to do: I feel she hates me with a passion: and I dont know who's the mental one here:
s rude to me: And dont say that's becuase she loves me: I did some pretty terrrible things: forcing me to do: I ate out of the trash: and she forced me to eat a bagel out f t: she throws my phone in the hallway, without leaving it on the table: where I can see it: and she expets me to be her mind reader when I walk past her, and she has a plate in her hand, and she expexts me to just give hr food: with out being nice, and asking me to put the plate away: She has a favorite word she likes to use: She thinks im this mentally ill girl, who's afarid of every little thing, even people: She thinks I have a deep root of fear: I tell her she's a lair but she doesnt care: I dont have fear: If I did, I wont purpse my dreams, and my goals If I had fear: so she's a lari on that: and, she also calls me demonic: When Im a born again believer: Im demonic with my demonic book: She thinks im this evil person, who's selfish ,when Im always helping pele, always encouring, and making someones day: She doesnt know that; and I feel she doesnt hav to: It's really furustering, and terrible: I dont have a mother: Not when she send me this ugly text yestureday: " FROM NOW ON DO NOT TALK TO ME UNLESS I TALK TO YOU TEXT IF YOU NEED TO TALK" and she's serious: everytime I try to have a convo with her, she says not to talk to her: but she understands with a text.... how sick is that ? So I have duck tape on my mouth, and she can only talk to me: She making my life a liv hell, and i dont know what to do: I feel she hates me with a passion: and I dont know who's the mental one here:
