alrighty then, i will continue to keep trying and to pray to Jesus to show me who i am in him I thought I was doing it wrong and that is why it didn't work but it makes me so happy to think that maybe I will be ready very soon
i know alot of christians but they don't have the same level of joy in christ as me they didn't even think much of the visions the lord showed me. i know it's hard to beleive but i was lucky enough to be right beside god as he was showing me his plan. here is how it happened, before i was saved i was alone in despair and i cried out to god to show me is real because i was so alone and I needed to know he was there. i went to sleep that night in misery But that very night i was suddenly in some sort of heaven it was the actual heave but everything was pure white and god was standing right beside me I could only see him as a spirit not a physical form like i expected him to be I later learned that he is a spirit and that is why he can everywhere at the same time. But he was showing me his plan for the universe, the only way i know how to explain it is a huge river of amazing colors and it was so beautiful that i couldn't stop crying and thanked him over and over and over again for showing me this. let me just say that merely being in his presence is the most amazing thing that can ever happen to anyone I woke up the next morning feeling happy for no at reason at all i could only think of the dream. when i told the people at my church about this they thought nothing of it and my love for god reaches levels that it just tires people and i have yet to find someone as passionate in christ as me and on the same level. i actually one day when i was saved asked god to show me another vision but it was for a different reason, i didn't need proof this time i just wanted to see what other amazing things he would show me. again i didn't expect him to answer but he did that very night. i would explain it but it is very complex and idk if anyone here want's to know about it so I guess i will wait to tell it until someone says they want to hear it