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So I met my boyfriend in church, and we were friends for 3 years before even THINKING about dating. He wanted to be a pastor and I, a youth minister, for our home church. The day before he started college his mother took his car, kicked him out, and he had no way of getting to college so was forced to drop.
After that, things got really hard for him. For us. We have been together for 3 years now, and we both live together because of both of us getting kicked out by our parents. (My mom was a sever drug addict and she was also bi-polar which made her go crazy on me every day for things like forgetting to check the mail or parking too close to the house). Anyways, we had a horrible relationship at the beginning, and I completely strayed from God.
I went from going to every service to not going in almost 2 years. Last Sunday, however, God tugged at my heart to go to church and I did. It sparked something in me that I haven't felt in a long time. I decided to start going back, but I live with my boyfriend still. We are engaged, but I feel like I am being a hypocrite trying to start this path again. I'm afraid that God won't be pleased and neither will my church. I want to be in the drama and the choir and sing on some sundays and become a Sunday School Teacher, but I don't think my church will let me. Do you think they should? Am I a bad example? Is God looking down on me? I just feel like if I can't be a part of the church, why should I even go?
After that, things got really hard for him. For us. We have been together for 3 years now, and we both live together because of both of us getting kicked out by our parents. (My mom was a sever drug addict and she was also bi-polar which made her go crazy on me every day for things like forgetting to check the mail or parking too close to the house). Anyways, we had a horrible relationship at the beginning, and I completely strayed from God.
I went from going to every service to not going in almost 2 years. Last Sunday, however, God tugged at my heart to go to church and I did. It sparked something in me that I haven't felt in a long time. I decided to start going back, but I live with my boyfriend still. We are engaged, but I feel like I am being a hypocrite trying to start this path again. I'm afraid that God won't be pleased and neither will my church. I want to be in the drama and the choir and sing on some sundays and become a Sunday School Teacher, but I don't think my church will let me. Do you think they should? Am I a bad example? Is God looking down on me? I just feel like if I can't be a part of the church, why should I even go?