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It's been about a month and a half and I can't seem to quit feeling down on myself. I dated my ex for 5 years and was suddenly dumped. A week later my best childhood friend passed away. I had been lazy in the spiritual side of my life and used this as a time to get back to praying and going to church. I had been doing so much better spiritually and emotionally. Then a week ago my ex sent me a text apologizing for the way he treated me after the breakup and now he understands how his actions made me feel. He had a "rebound" girl soon after and that is what made him realize how I felt. She has cut him off and he is still obsessing over her. He likes everything she puts on facebook and instagram. He will even go find old pictures from years ago to like. All of this is hurting me, because I feel like he should be more upset over the person he dated for five years rather than the one month rebound. When he sent the apology message it was very sincere and we had a long conversation afterwards. He told me about how he had contemplated suicide after he failed school. He is at the lowest point in his life and can't seem to find happiness. I told him about my experience and how good it felt to reconnect with God during my tough times. He wants to focus on himself and become a better person but, just like I can't let go of him, he can't let go of her. After we had that long heart-to-heart, he's disappeared out of my life again. So now I'm very depressed and I keep turning to God for help. I know I have to trust that He has a great plan for me, but at the moment I keep findng myself questioning that path. I feelt so let down by myself when I break down and get emotional. My prayers have been cries for help and I can't see myself coming out of this depression. How can I learn to put all of my trust in God?