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hey fellow Christians, my name is monica, im eighteen, ive had a rough life, im sturrgling with faith, with what i want to do with the rest of my life, im not exactly homeless yet, i just started staying with my boyfriend and his roomates, but they are strong christians and thet said they are here to help... but i cant be here for more than fourteen days before i have to put my name on the lease.. you have to have a job to do that.. i do not. but their letting me stay for a little bit, its up to me to find a job, and attempt to get my own place, if i cant do that then i am homeless. i have just recently found jesus agin, it was a wondeful feeling and still is, i went to church today for the first time in a very long time... went up to the alter and just prayed i layed it all on the cross... im am doing the best i can to better my relationship with god. because i know with christ anything is possible. i have this integrety inside my self to want to do this, i just feel like the devil keeps throwing things at me, i recently just quit smoking pot. that was the easiest thing to do but now i feel like either the devil is hoping i backslide, or the lord is testing my strength and so far i have begun to stick with jesus i feel like im on the right path... but im still dealing with temptation... everywhere i go i smell it.. around the apartment building... its so hard to fight back... but i asked the good lord above to protect me and give me the strength to fight back... sometimes i feel lost like i have nothing figured out and i cant find a job anywhere.... but i am going to try! because i do not want to be homeless...
