Worried about if God helps or if it depends on what I know

[M1chaeL]

In the past when I realized God loved me, I had a sense of security. It seemed as if I just realized a truth that was there all along… it wasn’t dependent on me so I was safe.

But as of now I am unsure and I get confused.

What hurt me after resting in Him was being worried when I looked at how others’ struggled.
**I didn’t know if I only rested when others panicked because of how I viewed God and God wasn’t really there helping**
It seemed as if **if I got amnesia and forgot how I viewed God, God would not help because it all depended on my mind**. I panicked a lot…. It seemed as if God did care enough to die for me, but He was distant, just wanting me to view Him well enough.

It made having the relationship difficult, I used to feel worse for my sins because of how I would do that against someone who loved me so much. But now just seeing it as a view He seems so distant… and I used to feel safe knowing He loved me, but now it feels like I am just supposed to have faith well enough and rest in my faith.

It makes it seem as if **it just depends on what I believe about God, but He doesn’t really help and stay present there for me.**
I want to see Him as close again….

At first it was like:
“The truth is God loves me, no matter I am okay because He’ll seek me out,”
But then it seemed like:
“The truth is, God wants me to rest in my thinking and view of Him, but He won’t stay there and help me…”

I need to fix thing. I want to rest in God and be close to Him like before but this lie troubled me and made Him seem so distant.

I do just want things sorted out. To see Him like a person there for me, because when it just seems like it’s about my thinking it makes God seem distant….

 

[Artios1]

In the past when I realized God loved me, I had a sense of security. It seemed as if I just realized a truth that was there all along… it wasn’t dependent on me so I was safe.

But as of now I am unsure and I get confused.

What hurt me after resting in Him was being worried when I looked at how others’ struggled.
**I didn’t know if I only rested when others panicked because of how I viewed God and God wasn’t really there helping**
It seemed as if **if I got amnesia and forgot how I viewed God, God would not help because it all depended on my mind**. I panicked a lot…. It seemed as if God did care enough to die for me, but He was distant, just wanting me to view Him well enough.

It made having the relationship difficult, I used to feel worse for my sins because of how I would do that against someone who loved me so much. But now just seeing it as a view He seems so distant… and I used to feel safe knowing He loved me, but now it feels like I am just supposed to have faith well enough and rest in my faith.

It makes it seem as if **it just depends on what I believe about God, but He doesn’t really help and stay present there for me.**
I want to see Him as close again….

At first it was like:
“The truth is God loves me, no matter I am okay because He’ll seek me out,”
But then it seemed like:
“The truth is, God wants me to rest in my thinking and view of Him, but He won’t stay there and help me…”

I need to fix thing. I want to rest in God and be close to Him like before but this lie troubled me and made Him seem so distant.

I do just want things sorted out. To see Him like a person there for me, because when it just seems like it’s about my thinking it makes God seem distant….

Bluntly ….Your thinking is irrelevant unless you are thinking the Word of God.

Just read the first 3 chapters of Ephesians ….between 1:1 and 3:21. God displays what He has done for you in Christ and the things He will be doing in the future for you in Christ. .
When you consider that He will.... in the ages to come... show YOU the exceeding riches of His grace in His kindness towards you …..that has got to blow your sox off. This is God telling you what He wants to do for you in the ages to come…

Eph 2:7 That in the ages to come he might shew the exceeding riches of his grace in his kindness toward us through Christ Jesus.

So, has He walked away from you….not possible. Set your mind straight with the Word and wrap your head around what He says…. not what you think.

 

[Gideon300]

In the past when I realized God loved me, I had a sense of security. It seemed as if I just realized a truth that was there all along… it wasn’t dependent on me so I was safe.

But as of now I am unsure and I get confused.

What hurt me after resting in Him was being worried when I looked at how others’ struggled.
**I didn’t know if I only rested when others panicked because of how I viewed God and God wasn’t really there helping**
It seemed as if **if I got amnesia and forgot how I viewed God, God would not help because it all depended on my mind**. I panicked a lot…. It seemed as if God did care enough to die for me, but He was distant, just wanting me to view Him well enough.

It made having the relationship difficult, I used to feel worse for my sins because of how I would do that against someone who loved me so much. But now just seeing it as a view He seems so distant… and I used to feel safe knowing He loved me, but now it feels like I am just supposed to have faith well enough and rest in my faith.

It makes it seem as if **it just depends on what I believe about God, but He doesn’t really help and stay present there for me.**
I want to see Him as close again….

At first it was like:
“The truth is God loves me, no matter I am okay because He’ll seek me out,”
But then it seemed like:
“The truth is, God wants me to rest in my thinking and view of Him, but He won’t stay there and help me…”

I need to fix thing. I want to rest in God and be close to Him like before but this lie troubled me and made Him seem so distant.

I do just want things sorted out. To see Him like a person there for me, because when it just seems like it’s about my thinking it makes God seem distant….

"Seems". False. God has promised never to leave us or forsake us. Unconfessed sin cuts off fellowship with God, but relationship never changes. We are adopted, not foster children.

Hebrews 4:

…15For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who was tempted in every way that we are, yet was without sin. 16 Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

God will, at times, withdraw the sense of His presence. This is to wean us off dependence on feelings. I no longer think about whether or not I'm close to God. It took many years of experience with God to come to this place. I used to pray and wonder if I'd done it properly. I used to wonder if God heard me or I'd messed up somehow. God is far bigger and more caring than we imagine. Let's not bring Him down to our level!

 

[Dean4u2c]

The best way to get closer to God is to study his word and ask for understanding of it. He can open the seals of your mind and download a wealth of information concerning his word. Ask, seek, knock and it shall be opened unto you. Don't allow your faith to stumble. God is very real and loves all his children including you. In our weaknesses, he is our strength. Hang in there. Things will get better.