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Hi, everyone I'm Americana, and I have a problem, and want to know if anyone can help, or have gone through what I'm going through? I have been married for 40 years and this past March I found out my husband was cheating on me. He says there wasn't any thing sexual, but I have so many doubts..he would stay out and tell me he was working, or that he was going out with everyone from his work, to eat or just talk, but I caught him with a lady in her car, and he can't explain all the hours he spent with her, or all the cell phone calls between them, they called each other every day,he talked to her more than he talked to me. he said he was sorry but didn't think it was wrong to go out to eat with her or have a drink (he never went out for drinks or to a bar before), and he said all they did was talk, he wants me to put it all behind me, to forgive him, and move on, but it is so hard for me. I don't trust him, and he just doesn't get how much I'm hurt. It broke my heart! I just don't feel that same feeling in this marriage, but I want to try, and forgive him, and get over it, but it is so hard, and I pray all the time fro God to soften his heart, and love me. I feel so unloved, and have no self esteem, the lady he was with is about 17 years younger than him. Even if it was an emotional affair, it has broken my heart. I would appreciate any advice. Thank you...