you know i normally keep my personnel issues to myself but i just need some comfort right now.i can't say what but i did something so horrible that my family hates me, i can't even be in the same room with them without feeling the anger and disgust in their eyes, i am not even allowed to be in the same room with my sister mia because of how angry she is with me. she actually told me she wants me gone and coming from her who i have been through thick and thin my whole life that crushed me.i have had emotional and verbal beatings all day and i deserve it, i have cried more than i can remember ever crying. Jesus is the only thing i have left, i have lost all that matters to me in this world- my family. i feel like i don't belong anymore and not just because of how i feel inside. i see myself as trash and can only seem to cry and long to be held once more in the lords arms, and i know he loves me but i cannot even love myself.i am not as strong as a lot of people mentally or spiritually, but i should have at least been strong enough to not do what i did.
Drowning in my tears
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Dimming Of The Day
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Psalm 6 NASB - Prayer for Mercy in Time of Trouble
6 O Lord, do not rebuke me in Your anger,
Nor chasten me in Your wrath.
[SUP]2 [/SUP]Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am pining away;
Heal me, O Lord, for my bones are dismayed.
[SUP]3 [/SUP]And my soul is greatly dismayed;
But You, O Lord—how long?
[SUP]4 [/SUP]Return, O Lord, rescue my [SUP][b][/SUP]soul;
Save me because of Your lovingkindness.
[SUP]5 [/SUP]For there is no [SUP][c][/SUP]mention of You in death;
In [SUP][d][/SUP]Sheol who will give You thanks?
[SUP]6 [/SUP]I am weary with my sighing;
Every night I make my bed swim,
I dissolve my couch with my tears.
[SUP]7 [/SUP]My eye has wasted away with grief;
It has become old because of all my adversaries.
[SUP]8 [/SUP]Depart from me, all you who do iniquity,
For the Lord has heard the voice of my weeping.
[SUP]9 [/SUP]The Lord has heard my supplication,
The Lord receives my prayer.
[SUP]10 [/SUP]All my enemies will be ashamed and greatly dismayed;
They shall [SUP][e][/SUP]turn back, they will suddenly be ashamed.
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Psalm 6 NASB - Prayer for Mercy in Time of Trouble
6 O Lord, do not rebuke me in Your anger,
Nor chasten me in Your wrath.
[SUP]2 [/SUP]Be gracious to me, O Lord, for I am pining away;
Heal me, O Lord, for my bones are dismayed.
[SUP]3 [/SUP]And my soul is greatly dismayed;
But You, O Lord—how long?
[SUP]4 [/SUP]Return, O Lord, rescue my [SUP][b][/SUP]soul;
Save me because of Your lovingkindness.
[SUP]5 [/SUP]For there is no [SUP][c][/SUP]mention of You in death;
In [SUP][d][/SUP]Sheol who will give You thanks?
[SUP]6 [/SUP]I am weary with my sighing;
Every night I make my bed swim,
I dissolve my couch with my tears.
[SUP]7 [/SUP]My eye has wasted away with grief;
It has become old because of all my adversaries.
[SUP]8 [/SUP]Depart from me, all you who do iniquity,
For the Lord has heard the voice of my weeping.
[SUP]9 [/SUP]The Lord has heard my supplication,
The Lord receives my prayer.
[SUP]10 [/SUP]All my enemies will be ashamed and greatly dismayed;
They shall [SUP][e][/SUP]turn back, they will suddenly be ashamed.
Blain, do not be discouraged, for even when we are unfaithful, Jesus remains faithful.
You know you are already forgiven, just remember to forgive yourself.
I pray that this time will bring in you the knowlage of Gods power and glory realised in the scripture....
for it is in our weaknesses that God's power is made perfect, glorified!
You and your family are in my prayers in Jesus for all that is the mirical of Jesus in your lives realised!
God bless
pickles
You know you are already forgiven, just remember to forgive yourself.
I pray that this time will bring in you the knowlage of Gods power and glory realised in the scripture....
for it is in our weaknesses that God's power is made perfect, glorified!
You and your family are in my prayers in Jesus for all that is the mirical of Jesus in your lives realised!
God bless
pickles
ty all for your help, yes i have apologized and begged for forgiveness. as for what it is i cannot say its a personal thing about my family and they would be furious if they found out i spoke of it. but surely god can do something with this situation, perhaps this is not what it appears. maybe this is the beginning of something good
J
It takes time Blain for some issues to be resolved. Look how Joseph
was imprisoned for his innocence. He was there for a purpose as God
worked in him until he was ready to be able to be Leader of many people.
So, what seems really bad now, even if you were asked to leave, just
hold on to the fact God is all kowing, all seeing, and forgiving. He will guide
you. I am sorry you have had this happen. But honey believe me, when
we make mistakes or sin, God will for give you, and you are going to come
out of this with more maturity than you can dream of. Love in Christ.
was imprisoned for his innocence. He was there for a purpose as God
worked in him until he was ready to be able to be Leader of many people.
So, what seems really bad now, even if you were asked to leave, just
hold on to the fact God is all kowing, all seeing, and forgiving. He will guide
you. I am sorry you have had this happen. But honey believe me, when
we make mistakes or sin, God will for give you, and you are going to come
out of this with more maturity than you can dream of. Love in Christ.
K
HIS EYE IS ON THE SPARROW by SELAH with lyrics - YouTube
so sorry....this song is special to me, and i hope it lifts you up.
so sorry....this song is special to me, and i hope it lifts you up.
O
Yes, maybe this is the beginning of something good. I had a friend whose family had lots of family secrets. I think it created a lot of baggage, the truth sets us free. Whatever it was your family now has to choose to forgive. Rejection in the family is difficult but if you remember you belong to the family of God you may be able to keep your hope up. They may never forgive, but do you still believe you've been forgiven? I will pray that the Lord gives you peace and also assurance of your place. That he puts the healing balm of Gilead on your broken heart.
GOD IS OUR ONLY ANSWER!!==Deliverance Prayer - 1.Heavenly Father, thank you that Jesus came so that I may have life in abundance.2.I receive the blood of Jesus on my spirit, soul and body.3.Please forgive me for the sins I committed that gave the spirit of suicide access to my life.4.I apply the blood of Jesus between me and the spirits that torment me.5.Thank you Father that you draw me out of darkness into your marvellous light.6.I will arise and shine, for my light has come.7.I shall not die, but live and declare the works of the Lord. Ps.118:178.O death where is your sting, o grave where is your victory? 1 Cor.15:559.In the name of Jesus I break any contract that I, or my ancestors have made with thespirit of death. I reject it and declare it powerless today.10.I reject all thoughts of suicide and cast them down. I take authority over the powers thatare behind those thoughts.11.I resist fear, anxiety, discouragement, self-pity and every feeling of worthlessness anddepression.12.I receive the thoughts, feelings and purposes of Christ.13.I submit myself to God, I resist the devil, and he will flee from me. James 4:714.I thank you Father for abundant life in Christ.15. I will not die before it is my time, but live and fulfil my destiny on this earth.16.Father, you have good thoughts for me, plans of welfare and to prosper me. You want togive me hope for the future. Jer. 29:11-1317.Please fill me with me with hope, joy and peace.18.Thank you Lord that you have heard me! In Jesus name, AmenContinue to pray this prayer until you experience peace....to give knowledge of salvation unto his people by the remission of their sins,Through the heartfelt mercies of our God,God's Sunrise will break in upon us,Shining on those in the darkness,those sitting in the shadow of death,Then showing us the way,one foot at a time,down the path of peace.Luk 1:78, 79