This is one of the reasons why I am so afraid, and one of the reasons why I have so much panic and fear. I think that I love my husband more then I love anyone, and I care about his opinion more than I do Gods. Isnt that the most horrible thing you have ever heard? I have prayed and prayed and prayed for God to help me love him more then anyone.
I am scared that God is punishing me for this. Any thoughts on what to do?
No it isn't the most horrible thing I have ever heard. You have been honest, it shows actually that you do have a sincere heart for God. It is easy for us all to come and comment that God matters most in our lives, and he should, and I am sure to some He does. I have struggled withv this too. I have been convicted lately that I must care more about God than anything.
I honestly believe it is only God that can bring us to this point. We are called to love Him with all our body, soul, heart and mind. I know I have failed miserably. But God looks at the heart, and He still loves me, and you I am sure.
I do not believe God is punishing you for this. But He may allow circumstances into your life so that you come closer to him. Thank you for your honesty, I appreciate it, and I am sure God does too
God Bless