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Ever ask yourself that question? I guess if you are then more often than not it's probably true.
There are some very strange things happening in my life right now. Things that I thought I was so certain of before, things that I thought were "from God" in some form or fashion have been flipped upside down. I realize that when we are in the moment of something and we say something is "from God" doesn't mean that things will pan out the way we envision them. Sometimes the complete opposite happens, and yes, it can still be "from God".
I am being cryptic. Essentially what I am experiencing is a dry spell when it comes to good Christian men. When I develop feelings for one and suspect the feelings are mutual suddenly they are dating somebody else. On the other side the Christian men who are interested in me I feel nothing for (romantically anyways, not that I don't care for them since they are friends too). The one man I've grown to care for is not a Christian and he has expressed his romantic feelings for me. It's confusing because I want that Christian guy in my life but there never seems to be mutual interest on both sides.
This is what I mean that I feel that God is testing my heart, like he's preparing me for something and I have no clue what it is. Honestly, I am scared as to what it could be, but more scared of not obeying him.
I have few people who I can comfortably confide in, which is why I am posting this. I need prayer for patience and guidance and for my heart to soften to the idea of falling in love, even if that means I might get hurt. I would rather get hurt than be in limbo forever.
There are some very strange things happening in my life right now. Things that I thought I was so certain of before, things that I thought were "from God" in some form or fashion have been flipped upside down. I realize that when we are in the moment of something and we say something is "from God" doesn't mean that things will pan out the way we envision them. Sometimes the complete opposite happens, and yes, it can still be "from God".
I am being cryptic. Essentially what I am experiencing is a dry spell when it comes to good Christian men. When I develop feelings for one and suspect the feelings are mutual suddenly they are dating somebody else. On the other side the Christian men who are interested in me I feel nothing for (romantically anyways, not that I don't care for them since they are friends too). The one man I've grown to care for is not a Christian and he has expressed his romantic feelings for me. It's confusing because I want that Christian guy in my life but there never seems to be mutual interest on both sides.
This is what I mean that I feel that God is testing my heart, like he's preparing me for something and I have no clue what it is. Honestly, I am scared as to what it could be, but more scared of not obeying him.
I have few people who I can comfortably confide in, which is why I am posting this. I need prayer for patience and guidance and for my heart to soften to the idea of falling in love, even if that means I might get hurt. I would rather get hurt than be in limbo forever.