The unknown can be very intimidating. Jesus Christ casts out fear of the unknown. In Christ there is no fear for the future is absolutely certain.
Personal circumstances aside you need to make certain of your standing before Jesus Christ. This world is filled with misery and woe. Great tribulations and trials are never a pleasant experience. I have seen many go through these things with a certain and sure hope that Jesus Christ will not forsake them. Jesus Christ will comfort and strengthen in the darkest hours of our life.
Jesus wants to save you from your sins and give you eternal life. Jesus will then stick with you closer than any friend. You will never be alone when you have Jesus Christ as your Savior.
I hope you have a bible or can download one from the web, many are free, then begin to read the Gospel of John. Ask God to show you what you need to know from His word. From John then read the book of Romans. You can always come here if you have questions. Many here can help. Some are not so helpful but God will make that clear to you as well.
For the cause of Christ
Roger