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I know it exist, I know the enemy is not omnipresent, but lately, I just feel like I am overwhelmed. I have prayed and prayed and asked God for peace and for His thoughts. I feel like prayers arnt being answered, and I know its not in my time, but I have caught myself just straying because either way, I'm miserable.
I don't want to stray of course, but I cant shake this. I have started to realize that my breathing is getting difficult and its hard for me to grasp my breath and I looked it up and stress and anxiety is a big cause of it. ( I see a Dr frenquently and Im healthy). I am just miserable each and every single day, and a big part of it is Im not trusting God. It has been so hard for me to trust Him for my future. I want to trust Him, I want to have faith and hope and I am as close to God has I have ever been in life and I try to walk the walk as close as possible and I don't know what more I can do. I just stand here wanting to ask God, WHAT MORE CAN I DO??? WHY CANT I HAVE PEACE? WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY?
I have felt at one point in my life when I went to God for a decision, a life changing decision, one that I really didn't want a year or so ago and I followed my heart and had others pray for me and for direction. My heart changed, walls came down, clarification sank in and signs were shown that this was the route I was supposed to go. I followed and months later, it came crashing down. To this day I am so sure that I did the right thing but I feel deceived from God. No matter who I talk too, therapist, Christians, family, no one has answers and Im not saying they should, but its been over a year and I am still miserable and confused. Im trying to live my life as best as I can, but I feel as if something is missing and its the promise that I truly feel was laid on my heart, but Im having a hard time trusting God.
Im hoping someone could give me words of advice or encouragement or SOMETHING. I feel as if now I walk around partially dead inside because no body knows anything and neither do I and it just dosent make sense. I smile when really Im crying inside and no body gets it. Its easy to say to trust God and to keep going, but how can you?? How can I trust God in the future if this happens again to only be let down?
Rachel
I don't want to stray of course, but I cant shake this. I have started to realize that my breathing is getting difficult and its hard for me to grasp my breath and I looked it up and stress and anxiety is a big cause of it. ( I see a Dr frenquently and Im healthy). I am just miserable each and every single day, and a big part of it is Im not trusting God. It has been so hard for me to trust Him for my future. I want to trust Him, I want to have faith and hope and I am as close to God has I have ever been in life and I try to walk the walk as close as possible and I don't know what more I can do. I just stand here wanting to ask God, WHAT MORE CAN I DO??? WHY CANT I HAVE PEACE? WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY?
I have felt at one point in my life when I went to God for a decision, a life changing decision, one that I really didn't want a year or so ago and I followed my heart and had others pray for me and for direction. My heart changed, walls came down, clarification sank in and signs were shown that this was the route I was supposed to go. I followed and months later, it came crashing down. To this day I am so sure that I did the right thing but I feel deceived from God. No matter who I talk too, therapist, Christians, family, no one has answers and Im not saying they should, but its been over a year and I am still miserable and confused. Im trying to live my life as best as I can, but I feel as if something is missing and its the promise that I truly feel was laid on my heart, but Im having a hard time trusting God.
Im hoping someone could give me words of advice or encouragement or SOMETHING. I feel as if now I walk around partially dead inside because no body knows anything and neither do I and it just dosent make sense. I smile when really Im crying inside and no body gets it. Its easy to say to trust God and to keep going, but how can you?? How can I trust God in the future if this happens again to only be let down?
Rachel