I have posted this as a blog on my page but it was suggested to post on this forum.I am 28, been married almost 3 years, and have 2 beautiful sons. I have never had anyone explain religion to me growing up, nothing more than you go to church praise the lord and live right. My husband is an abusive alcoholic. It didn't start it that way, the physical abuse started about a year ago. He had choked me to the point of losing consciousness several times, but the last time was 2 weeks ago. He was drunk, he choked me until I passed out, while I was out I felt like I was having a dream but watching what was going on in the room like a fly on the wall. I came to confused and he was waiting to choke me again. The next day he always asks to be forgiven, swears to never drink again, and I don't know what I am supposed to do. I pray for a change of heart and understanding. I have been physical with my husband as well while drinking, but it is out of fear and self defense. He is the one working, I have no friends any longer, no family to help, and I truly don't want to give up on my marriage. He is good when he doesn't drink, but the things he has said to me while drunk have stuck with me and I feel so worthless at times. Would the lord ever call me to leave my marriage? I am trying to read the bible, pray that I understand the way he needs me to, but I am not very knowledgeable, so I am seeking advice outside of the situation. Thank you for reading this.