godsdaughter... Just want to encourage you to keep your eyes on Jesus. Life is a journey with the Lord & as we abide in His word daily, He strengthens us. You are more then a conqueror in Christ Jesus, and He is able to do abundantly above all that you ask or think. Trust in Him completely, and allow your spirit to become strong in the Lord. No one can walk your journey for you, but in the Lord, you can be an overcomer in Him!