Thank you to all who kept me in their prayers and encouraged me through their words. You have no idea how much you've touched my heart and soul. I'm usually a strong person but hey we all got an Achilles' heel... somewhere.
I am holding my CC family accountable to holding me accountable to myself, in this stormy season of my life. You all know how terribly easy it is to be distracted from the things that matter in life. So I think it's a good thing to get this out there.
I failed at organising my schedule. I spent too much time on CC arguing with people, and playing mobile games on my phone. I procrastinated a lot. I was failing at life, basically. What with my 12hr shifts and (supposedly) part time school, where I pushed myself to get more units than normal. It was too much to handle for such a frail and easily deceived heart.
The one week break I had, gave me time and sanity to deal with an important presentation at school. So, just to share, the feedback my team got for that presentation was so great, we all did well (we actually got the highest marks). So I know this break, and accountability thing is working (at least for me).
Well, I have another two essays to finish before Friday and another presentation and homework next week. Then, the week before finals... and finally, the dreaded week. Then some work training I'm required to attend, and another two weeks of supplementary classes just before Christmas. I don't think I can go home to my family this holiday season and that sucks but all things will work together. I'm sure some good things will happen.
No, I'm not terribly busy that I'm dying of stress or anything like that. I'm just very disorganised and needs help to keep focused and instead of being blessed and blessing CC, I was letting it consume me in ways that are destructive to my future.
Thank you all for even taking the time to read this. We all have our own lives but I'm thankful to Jesus for our community here and the selfless people Jesus has placed in here to just spread His love. You all know who you are <3 Or maybe not. So, that's sweetmorningdew78, notmyown, depleted, slave, LittleBit1987, nonamemcgee, toinena, jenizona, Rosemaryx, razor17, seoulsearch (I might have gotten some usernames wrong, but u gotta give me credit for not once looking up my friends list ).
And the rest who have made a great impact in my life, in all my years (...almost 10!!) here. You probably already KNOW who you are (I'll write another list sometime in the future).
All I can offer you in exchange, is praying for you all's good health, peace to reign in your hearts every single day and Jesus' love to fill you even more, knowing that He is the author and perfecter or our faith, that His love breaks every chain and that He has the key, no scratch that, He IS the key to a joy that is so fulfilling, so that you can bless many more people. <3 I love you all <3 <3
(and please kick me out of here if I start posting again before next week, I plan to just visit CC every week as my reward for being focused )
I am holding my CC family accountable to holding me accountable to myself, in this stormy season of my life. You all know how terribly easy it is to be distracted from the things that matter in life. So I think it's a good thing to get this out there.
I failed at organising my schedule. I spent too much time on CC arguing with people, and playing mobile games on my phone. I procrastinated a lot. I was failing at life, basically. What with my 12hr shifts and (supposedly) part time school, where I pushed myself to get more units than normal. It was too much to handle for such a frail and easily deceived heart.
The one week break I had, gave me time and sanity to deal with an important presentation at school. So, just to share, the feedback my team got for that presentation was so great, we all did well (we actually got the highest marks). So I know this break, and accountability thing is working (at least for me).
Well, I have another two essays to finish before Friday and another presentation and homework next week. Then, the week before finals... and finally, the dreaded week. Then some work training I'm required to attend, and another two weeks of supplementary classes just before Christmas. I don't think I can go home to my family this holiday season and that sucks but all things will work together. I'm sure some good things will happen.
No, I'm not terribly busy that I'm dying of stress or anything like that. I'm just very disorganised and needs help to keep focused and instead of being blessed and blessing CC, I was letting it consume me in ways that are destructive to my future.
Thank you all for even taking the time to read this. We all have our own lives but I'm thankful to Jesus for our community here and the selfless people Jesus has placed in here to just spread His love. You all know who you are <3 Or maybe not. So, that's sweetmorningdew78, notmyown, depleted, slave, LittleBit1987, nonamemcgee, toinena, jenizona, Rosemaryx, razor17, seoulsearch (I might have gotten some usernames wrong, but u gotta give me credit for not once looking up my friends list ).
And the rest who have made a great impact in my life, in all my years (...almost 10!!) here. You probably already KNOW who you are (I'll write another list sometime in the future).
All I can offer you in exchange, is praying for you all's good health, peace to reign in your hearts every single day and Jesus' love to fill you even more, knowing that He is the author and perfecter or our faith, that His love breaks every chain and that He has the key, no scratch that, He IS the key to a joy that is so fulfilling, so that you can bless many more people. <3 I love you all <3 <3
(and please kick me out of here if I start posting again before next week, I plan to just visit CC every week as my reward for being focused )