Hi y'all friendos!
I'm sensing more and more that God is going to start using me for much bigger and better things, and I've been dramatically changed over this past year to finally accept the comfort, warmth and love that is in Him. It's so hard to describe, yet sometimes makes so much sense, but I'm still so scared or even terrified at times.
Raised Roman Catholic, so the Bible passages were basically thumped into my head. Attending a Brethren in Christ church for the past 7 years with an open policy, bands, music, activities, loving it. Pastor mentioned Greg Boyd, so I listened to a full year of his podcasts in less than 2 months while at work, and good God, it was good!
I'm a terrible sinner, alcoholic, never really liked "rules" or "laws" yet i respect all those who do. I've already undergone a huge transformation to become sober and try to provide as much value to this world as possible, but I slipped back a bit.
Back then, church was a just a good thing, helped me get over my newly-sober social anxiety. I was a new man training to be the best man I could be, so that I could deserve the woman of my dreams. After all, she's out there somewhere looking for me, so I better be ready when I find her, right?
But I wasn't so interested in the Word of God back then. Now, it's really affecting me. I've found the Apocrypha, which is sooo much more interesting to me than the canonical Bible. (Imagine that, someone who doesn't like rules enjoys reading the "forbidden texts") But it's filling in the gaps in my true understanding, relearning, re-acquaintance with the fact that God gave his only Son to heal us from our own sins. My shames are less, my confidence is generally higher than ever and it's so much easier to forgive others now.
Why am I so scared!
Humbly, SimeonPerhaps
I'm sensing more and more that God is going to start using me for much bigger and better things, and I've been dramatically changed over this past year to finally accept the comfort, warmth and love that is in Him. It's so hard to describe, yet sometimes makes so much sense, but I'm still so scared or even terrified at times.
Raised Roman Catholic, so the Bible passages were basically thumped into my head. Attending a Brethren in Christ church for the past 7 years with an open policy, bands, music, activities, loving it. Pastor mentioned Greg Boyd, so I listened to a full year of his podcasts in less than 2 months while at work, and good God, it was good!
I'm a terrible sinner, alcoholic, never really liked "rules" or "laws" yet i respect all those who do. I've already undergone a huge transformation to become sober and try to provide as much value to this world as possible, but I slipped back a bit.
Back then, church was a just a good thing, helped me get over my newly-sober social anxiety. I was a new man training to be the best man I could be, so that I could deserve the woman of my dreams. After all, she's out there somewhere looking for me, so I better be ready when I find her, right?
But I wasn't so interested in the Word of God back then. Now, it's really affecting me. I've found the Apocrypha, which is sooo much more interesting to me than the canonical Bible. (Imagine that, someone who doesn't like rules enjoys reading the "forbidden texts") But it's filling in the gaps in my true understanding, relearning, re-acquaintance with the fact that God gave his only Son to heal us from our own sins. My shames are less, my confidence is generally higher than ever and it's so much easier to forgive others now.
Why am I so scared!
Humbly, SimeonPerhaps