Hello i am from India and English isn't my first language, so i hope everyone understands what i am trying to say. This is my first time using this site. I have been Christian since birth. And recently after hearing many pastors and leaders i have started reading bible. But from few months i find myself unnecessarily reading the same verse again and again or even the same word as if I haven't read it properly. And if i ignore that urge to read again it feels very heavy on my chest. It feels like if i don't then something bad might happen. And in my prayers I feel the urge to ask for the same thing again and again everyday, and it feels like a ritual. And i usually spend time on YouTube watching videos and if some Christian videos comes in suggestions i feel i should watch it and if i don't i feel bad about it. My heart feels heavy at times that i should ask God for protection. I hope people here could advice me