First, I'm new here..and a warning, this is a long post...guess I just need people who don't know me to help me understand this
...I'm feeling so lost, like I'm all alone. I know what the Word says but lately it has been difficult holding on to my Faith. *Yes, I am a born again Christian, 27 years of living on this earth and 16 months walking with Christ.
I've never felt this way before. . .I try to pray and read the Word only to feel myself drowning again. I used to have this close relationship with God but I think I got too comfortable at some point. I have rejection issues in the past so right now I feel like I am the worst person that I also receive rejection from the person I love most, God.
This year has been difficult. From cancer in the family, to getting no jobs and now I may be losing my home. I have added so much weight from stress eating and I feel like I'm going insane here :'( I pray and nothing. .
Well, before, I'd just drink and drug myself into the next day and believe me, I have thought about it. I wake up hating the day and dreading every minute. I thought I had this calling before but now I doubt coz how can I help others if I'm unable to use the same words to help myself..
No one around me understands. I guess I need my Christian family to help me out. Maybe if enough of us pray for me, God will answer.
...I'm feeling so lost, like I'm all alone. I know what the Word says but lately it has been difficult holding on to my Faith. *Yes, I am a born again Christian, 27 years of living on this earth and 16 months walking with Christ.
I've never felt this way before. . .I try to pray and read the Word only to feel myself drowning again. I used to have this close relationship with God but I think I got too comfortable at some point. I have rejection issues in the past so right now I feel like I am the worst person that I also receive rejection from the person I love most, God.
This year has been difficult. From cancer in the family, to getting no jobs and now I may be losing my home. I have added so much weight from stress eating and I feel like I'm going insane here :'( I pray and nothing. .
Well, before, I'd just drink and drug myself into the next day and believe me, I have thought about it. I wake up hating the day and dreading every minute. I thought I had this calling before but now I doubt coz how can I help others if I'm unable to use the same words to help myself..
No one around me understands. I guess I need my Christian family to help me out. Maybe if enough of us pray for me, God will answer.