Dear KezE,
As ChozN said, no one can know exactly what you are going through right now but we have all experienced similar times. Some of what is going through your mind right now is, "God, why did you let this happen to me?" And, "God, why did you make me find out about it?" And, "God, how will I ever get through this?" When I have faced these questions, I have taken comfort (in later life) in knowing that God loves me; just as He loves you. Psalm 36, verse 7, says "How priceless is your unfailing love, O God! People take refuge in the shadow of your wings." And while I know that this is far from your mind right now, I also find solace in Romans 8, verse 28, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,..."
God is sovereign over all things. You can be assured that He knows what you are going through, and that He longs to hold you in His arms and comfort you. Isaiah 25, verse 8, says "The Sovereign Lord will wipe away the tears from all faces; he will remove his people’s disgrace from all the earth."
So, my (admittedly feeble) advice would be "give your problem to God". Cry, scream, tear your hair, all in His presence. He will understand and send you the comfort you need to begin to face your situation. You are never closer to God than when you feel He is furthest away.
God bless you.