Selenah, we all run, or dont want to face things.
That is why we have Jesus, because He will bring His victory and power to you.
Tell Jesus all the things that you long to say, do not worry about wether it is ok or not, simply because Jesus overcame all these things so He can give you His powerful victory in it.
I often spend hours just talking to Jesus about what I dont understand, to the things I do not know how to give up, to simply asking Jesus to hear me, and know how hard it is some days.
Jesus trully does listen, and He will comfort you and give you all you need.
Even if you do not hear Jesus answer, keep calling on Him and talking to Him.
He will open your ears to His voice, and the voice of God Our Father.
I see you say( I dont know alot )here, I have a simular habit, I say( Im so tired).
Jesus has shown me that we are not to do this, that we need to instead, praise Him, praise God Our Father for the streangth we need.
Try saying instead, Your Knowladge is with me always Jesus!, every time you think or say, I dont know.
You see, when we speak defeat, we remove God's power and blessings and open the door to satns attacks, that is why we need to claim in praise, all of Gods gifts in Jesus.
I am constantly amazed at the power of God in our words in Jesus.
For when one speaks truth in praise, Jesus brings all streangth and knowladge needed.
You continue in my prayers in Jesus Selenah.
Hugs and God bless
pickles