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Last year I made a vow to god. And for the lasst year I havent had a boyfriend, or talked to one, or anything... And the ible says anything not of faith is of sin. So I've tried sooo hard to e honest to god nd truthful and like good. Or whatever you say. QAnd I recently ind of hit this storm... and ya know whenJesus pulls away, youlose that loveing, peacful feeling? Becaue tht happened to me for the last 2 days. just rrecently moved, and I got aggrivated because I always pray, o lthe time. FOr literal. ANd I guess I got spoiled but I got mad about something, and I yelled at him and got mad. Because he's the one that told me Id be okay here, and like I thought he wouldt leave me.... But now hes gone. And I cant see a way to make it better. So last night. I was thinkng, llik3e qbout the verse tht says sorrow endureth for n8ight, but joy cometh i the moringin... ut its tonight, and I was like ALMOSt OKAY earlier, and then I GOT mad about what I was mad about the other day, and it started all over again. And Im in the same friggin spot. I dunno how to explain 8it. Hav you ever had a friend, or a oyfriend, and you guys fought, and then the ext dy you didnt even relly wanna make it better? I feel like Im waitng for my life and my spiritual iund frame4 to go bac to normal..nd its not. Jeus needs a coment ox. I should get like good behavior or something. Ya know, like totaal forgiveness in times like this. Literally..I gave my lifeup for him ..//. (I should have like immunity to him be8ing total jerk.. Y knw wht Irye4d all Friggin day today.. and it is NOT happening nymore! Im not talking to him, until h4e apologizes to me. and puts me right bakc where I ws before. Hppy and normal,and content. nd if if hou guys pry tonight remind him how md I am!!! THis is the only ost Ive3 ever written regardng my christin walk, ecause I hardly ever ave problems I cant work through or pry through. I m NOt SPENDNG nymore time eing sad!