Let me describe to you a curious thing,it may sound very silly
I am a new believer and I am still battling the thought that God doesn't exist in my mind.
Today I went to the church to pray before the cross and I told our heavenly Father about my doubt sincerely.
I didn't know what it really was but while I was sitting and praying there on the bench with my eyes closed and head bowing-down,I felt for twice a soft touch on my head,it's soft and fleeting,I thought maybe my forehead had touched the back of the front bench,I didn't know why I had such strange feeling at all.After my prayer I opened my eyes and realized it couldn't be the bench,it's too low for my forehead.I began to wonder..All of the sudden,I thought it might be the LORD,oh my...Maybe he wanted to remove my doubt,I thought like this.A great joy came to me,I even wanted to make a phone call to my mother to tell her about this..Later I came to a room to sit with some people for a small gathering.When I sat down there,I couldn't help smiling and feeling rather happy and blessed.But after a while an overwhelming doubt filled my mind as if my head had been attacked by something,I felt stupid,ridiculous and disappointed.I felt very uncomfortable during the next 1 and half hour.I even felt that God didn't exist at all and I was fooling myself with some illusion.I felt that I was doubting God and I was not sincere to Him.After that I went before the cross to pray and begged for forgiveness for my little faith.But I still felt very downcast and my mind in chaos.I felt a lack of sincerity.It's so very strange.I didn't know how to comfort myself.I had never felt like this before.I began to wonder...I heard that Satan like to put seed of doubt in our mind and try all means to keep us away from God..Is it real so?
I am a new believer and I am still battling the thought that God doesn't exist in my mind.
Today I went to the church to pray before the cross and I told our heavenly Father about my doubt sincerely.
I didn't know what it really was but while I was sitting and praying there on the bench with my eyes closed and head bowing-down,I felt for twice a soft touch on my head,it's soft and fleeting,I thought maybe my forehead had touched the back of the front bench,I didn't know why I had such strange feeling at all.After my prayer I opened my eyes and realized it couldn't be the bench,it's too low for my forehead.I began to wonder..All of the sudden,I thought it might be the LORD,oh my...Maybe he wanted to remove my doubt,I thought like this.A great joy came to me,I even wanted to make a phone call to my mother to tell her about this..Later I came to a room to sit with some people for a small gathering.When I sat down there,I couldn't help smiling and feeling rather happy and blessed.But after a while an overwhelming doubt filled my mind as if my head had been attacked by something,I felt stupid,ridiculous and disappointed.I felt very uncomfortable during the next 1 and half hour.I even felt that God didn't exist at all and I was fooling myself with some illusion.I felt that I was doubting God and I was not sincere to Him.After that I went before the cross to pray and begged for forgiveness for my little faith.But I still felt very downcast and my mind in chaos.I felt a lack of sincerity.It's so very strange.I didn't know how to comfort myself.I had never felt like this before.I began to wonder...I heard that Satan like to put seed of doubt in our mind and try all means to keep us away from God..Is it real so?