Don't like to sing in church

music is not that only way to worship God. it's just another way to worship Him

i'm a singer in the music team, and i also lead from time to time. one thing i've learned from a class i took in college is the following:

the goal of worship (in this case, with music) is to see only the Lord. whenever it's my turn to lead worship, i keep this in mind when i'm writing down a song list. i love when everything else fades and all i see is Jesus.

i'll be honest. there was a time i got really distracted with perfection. i would get so upset if someone on the team sang out of tune (not hitting the right note), or someone played the wrong note, etc etc etc. i soon realized i was missing out on enjoying the time in God's presence because i was too focused on the wrong thing. worship is not about me. it's about exalting God because He is worthy in all times. some days i have to push through my feelings, and it has always been worth it. sometimes i'm singing the words on the screen. sometimes i turn off my mic and sing my own song. sometimes i'm silent and meditating on who He is.

now i know some musicians/singers/music team members have the wrong idea and make it a performance. i always gotta remember that i'm first, a worshiper, and then i'm a singer/musician.

so like the others have mentioned, in whom are we focusing? if we focus on people, we will be disappointed. shift the focus to God, and we see Him and all His beauty

We give glory to God in different capacities and in different forms. Singing may not be your thing; I don't see a problem with that in and of itself.

What Willie had in bold is curious, though.

Just because I say "I feel" in a sentence shouldn't discredit what I say...when I worship God I want to do it because I want to...not because I feel like I HAVE to...then it kinda sucks all the joy out of it...if worship is supposed to be about standing there and singing words I can do that. But if worship is about having a deep emotional creator/creation relationship with God, giving Him thanks and telling Him how amazing He is then I am having a hard time with that.

You see how feelings might play a role in that?

I didn't get the impression you were being called out or discredited (and I wasn't doing that).

Isn't worship about...well, worship? It's to give Him praise and glory. But I do agree in that if your heart is not in it, if you're doing it for the sake of doing it, then it's hypocrisy and you should pursue a time and method where you can really invest yourself in it. God loves a cheerful giver, after all, and I'm of the opinion that applies to more than just charity/good will towards man.

"Feelings" shouldn't just play a part.... contrary to what all the "sound doctrine" people think, I FEEL it should be a major portion of worshiping, and it is especially communicative when it is done in corporate worship with other believers. The Bible even says that God actually "inhabits" the praises of His people. That word, "people", implies a bunch of followers gathered together to make some serious noise about their God.

I'm not at all a demonstrative person. In fact, I have to close my eyes, and honestly ask God to help me "get into" ("Holy" types call it, "entering into.") the singing at church. But I know that about myself, so that's just what I do... I exhale, give it up, and let God loosen me up. If I was to do any "thinking" or "studying" on this thing called 'worship', I probably would get up, and walk out of the building.

I heard a wise man say that we humans have gotten many things all wrong and completely backward about God, but the main one is that we think you first get "religion" into your head through 'understanding', and then it comes into your heart. I have finally learned that it is just the opposite. Jesus comes into your heart, and then, over time, He helps your head catch up.

Everyone feels that way at least once ion their Christian life. What we do is override feelings and tell them where to go! We are not to allow ourselves to be controlled by our feelings, but we are to overrule them out of obedience to God's word. When it comes to physically worship, we take ourselves in hand and enforce obedience. The joy will return because one is sacrificing oneself to praise and in doing do will the apathy will disappear, to be replaced by a new sense of joy and gladness of heart.

Ever hear the phrase, "sacrifice of praise"?

There are certain songs that when sung in church, really lift me up and I may even raise my hands up as I sing, yet other songs may not touch me as much. The "Revelation Song" and "Jesus Messiah" (just to name a couple) always fill me with hands raised high praise!

I think that last paragraph nails it!