Hello everyone I just became a member of this website. I have always been a christian follower but now trying to get really into it. the problems I deal with is severe ocd with having intrusive thoughs. All type of intrusive thoughts that includes things that are blasphemy, doubt god and for a while thought that I could of broke the unforgivable sin. Which made me sick to my stomach. But I talk to someone who is a pastor and the only way you can break the unforable sin which is denying the holy spirit is to keep denying him and never come to the lord. When I get all these crazy thoughts, it causes me to dwell on them and get anxiety. I was wondering if people had advice on how to break these habits or to not let it get to me? I know I should see a psychiatrist but I simply cannot afford it and thank to anyone who responds?
A couple of years ago, I was in a Christian chat room. I was talking to a young woman, Amanda(not her real name) about 22 years old, as I recall. She PM'd me about something trivial and then God spoke to me and told me she had Multiple Personality Disorder. Amanda denied having MPD but she permitted me to speak to a little girl inside her. Instantly I began to speak to a little girl with in her, an alternate personality in her and soon found myself chatting with an 8 year old girl inside her.
As soon as I asked if there was a little girl who wanted to speak to me, a little girl typed back to me. "8" as I called her because she had the same name as the core person. As soon as I began speaking with "8" God said one word to me: "Cheyenne". "8" kept me so busy I did not have a chance to deal with who or what Cheyenne was. I spoke to "8" on a number of issues including forgiveness but not much happened as it was late and I need some sleep.
The next day or so when I spoke to Amanda, I asked her who Cheyenne was. This Cheyenne was a girl in her high school who tormented her for years. Once even stealing her bible. Again, I mentioned she needed to forgive Cheyenne. She said that before now she could never of forgiven her but Amanda (the core) spoke with "8" at length about forgiving Cheyenne.
Amanda then forgave her and asked God for forgiveness. I asked her to break soul ties with Cheyenne as well and showed her how to do this. I did not speak to Amanda for several weeks. Then she sent me an email and informed me she was off her bipolar medications and her symptoms had greatly decreased.
I only mention this because OCD like other psychological issues can be underpinned by demons which make the condition much worse. Those blasphemous thoughts are not your own! Reject them each and every time. Remind those voices you are a child of God, bought and paid for by the blood of Jesus. Ask God to help you get free as He can do it. I hope you get better soon.