Low Self Esteem

Pride is a tricky one. I struggled with that one a lot and this demon worked in pair with the pride demon so they tossed me to and fro like a volleyball, I'd embrace pridefulness to feel good about myself and look good to people for a moment, then get depressed again, feeling like garbage... but this other one is the same demon, just instead of condemning others he voices his mean opinions against the newborn child of God that you are... it really hit me too when I realized it was kinda like murdering Jesus all over again every time I hated myself. God doesnt make junk. Biblical humility is different and loving in nature "love others as you love thyself" - not the conceited self-love.

When you wrote this above, I remembered David and the account of his son Absalom... (as handsome as me). Ha! Ha!

Satan sinned the same way, pridefully. And he divided 1/3 of heavens.

I think it's our low self esteem that eventually gets us to see how much we need Him. It seems the proud and boastful never seem to get that they need anything outside themselves? I spent most of my childhood years being teased, (being Asian in a mainly white/black community just made it worse-you can imagine the name calling?) I was spared the cliche Asian height jokes though ( I'm 6' ) Eventually I got lucky and it changed for me in Jr High and so on, but it took those years, and a downward spiral later in life, to make me see that I needed something bigger in my life, something or someone outside myself.

As weird as it sounds --- it was partly because of my self-hatred that I found Him.
Years and years passed, and as I saw the world and myself differently, and what truly mattered (like elf3 said in the note above mine) I followed God, .....so I'm good to go now.

You have to be one of the sweetest people I've met on here SoulWeaver, people seem to dig you....you have a lot to be happy about my Dear.

You and I totally need to hang out. Just walk around the mall..talk about messing with people's minds lol

...is a very deceptive form of pride, and possibly the worst, because it is so covert and seems humble but it is not.
This is just something that God's been showing me recently. God's is still at work with my restoration from unfortunate social encounters in the past, and this time my confidence is being stored on a safe place - IN HIM.
Seems this enemy tactics is to get us to judge/reestimate/analyze/torture ourselves over and over again, instead of simply BELIEVING and thankfully accepting His justification and other yay things that the word of God says about us.

Your thoughts and experiences with this?

God will show you the truth sis, you do well to trust Him. Watch out for the wiles of the enemy.

Awesome. Time and place?
I have to admit- malls creep me out a bit. Giant corporate ran, tan-marbled uber-buildings full of "must haves", people walking around on cell phones, zoned out, while avoiding eye contact?

Might I suggest a hot dog stand? I can handle the 'crowds' better.

LOL, that about Absalom is hilarious,
Reminds me of that song "Mememe it's all about me" or something like that by a band called, no more no less, Jezebel xD. Ran into that once by accident in related videos when I was doing a Bible study on Jezebel, lol

Ezekiel 16:15 But thou didst trust in thine own beauty...

No thanks, I'll look up to Jesus He is the true mirror for us anyways. He tells us all the bad and also shows His love for us.

true! If you looked at a diamond, you´ll see it is a simple stone but, the moment you look deep in it, looking inside what that is, you´d see how beautiful it is and, diamonds are hit "stones", torn pieces made anew to give others something gold miners miners never guessed.

The beauty is INSIDE.