I am sorry for the length, but this is the shortest version was able to write...
I woke up. Hardly breathing, trembling and with tears in my eyes. In my dream a saw a torture of my Lord. I saw Him. I saw Him on the cross, I saw His bleeding wounds. I was there. I couldn‘t stand that look. I was too weak. I couldn‘t stand there. I ran away from there. I ran away from the place where my Lord, my beloved Saviour, was paying my debt. MY OWN DEBT. And I wasn‘t strong enough to be there. I wasn‘t strong enough to be there with Him. Tears were falling down from my eyes as I was running away. Tears of pain for my Lord. Tears of anger for myself. I ran away like a coward. I didn‘t see His lips whispering „I love you… I love you this much.“
Somehow I ended up on the edge of the forest. In the deep night. I stopped and wiped away the tears from my face. A lightning crossed the night sky. And raindrops began to fall down. I stood there and something was forcing me to make a few steps ahead… something was forcing me to go into the forest. I didn‘t know why, but I made one step, second one, and after a few moments I found myself deep in the forest. The moon and sporadic lightning were the only source of light. I kept walking, whispering „Please, forgive me. Forgive me my sin, forgive me my weakness, forgive me Your pain that I caused… Please, forgive me.“
And suddenly, I bright light appeared for a moment. And I saw a person walking in front of me, dressed in the brightest white garment I have ever seen. In a second I knew who it was. It was Him.
„My Lord,“ I heard my own shaking voice, „My Lord,“ I ran to Him and He stopped and turned to me. I fell down on my knees, touched the hem of His garment, crying once more. He took my hand, brought me to my feet, and slowly wiped away my tears. He smiled at me and in His smile I saw a victory, neverending love and forgiveness. „I love you,“ He whispered. „But… I‘m a sinful woman, I left You there, and-“ „I love You,“ He interrupted me. I smiled through the tears and He took my hand. We walked together. And I knew I was forgiven, loved… I am His…
And then I woke up. And I know that today I remember the day when my debt was paid in full. A day, when I was reconciled with Almighty God through the blood of His only Son. Day, when I was saved.
Thank you, Lord Jesus.
I woke up. Hardly breathing, trembling and with tears in my eyes. In my dream a saw a torture of my Lord. I saw Him. I saw Him on the cross, I saw His bleeding wounds. I was there. I couldn‘t stand that look. I was too weak. I couldn‘t stand there. I ran away from there. I ran away from the place where my Lord, my beloved Saviour, was paying my debt. MY OWN DEBT. And I wasn‘t strong enough to be there. I wasn‘t strong enough to be there with Him. Tears were falling down from my eyes as I was running away. Tears of pain for my Lord. Tears of anger for myself. I ran away like a coward. I didn‘t see His lips whispering „I love you… I love you this much.“
Somehow I ended up on the edge of the forest. In the deep night. I stopped and wiped away the tears from my face. A lightning crossed the night sky. And raindrops began to fall down. I stood there and something was forcing me to make a few steps ahead… something was forcing me to go into the forest. I didn‘t know why, but I made one step, second one, and after a few moments I found myself deep in the forest. The moon and sporadic lightning were the only source of light. I kept walking, whispering „Please, forgive me. Forgive me my sin, forgive me my weakness, forgive me Your pain that I caused… Please, forgive me.“
And suddenly, I bright light appeared for a moment. And I saw a person walking in front of me, dressed in the brightest white garment I have ever seen. In a second I knew who it was. It was Him.
„My Lord,“ I heard my own shaking voice, „My Lord,“ I ran to Him and He stopped and turned to me. I fell down on my knees, touched the hem of His garment, crying once more. He took my hand, brought me to my feet, and slowly wiped away my tears. He smiled at me and in His smile I saw a victory, neverending love and forgiveness. „I love you,“ He whispered. „But… I‘m a sinful woman, I left You there, and-“ „I love You,“ He interrupted me. I smiled through the tears and He took my hand. We walked together. And I knew I was forgiven, loved… I am His…
And then I woke up. And I know that today I remember the day when my debt was paid in full. A day, when I was reconciled with Almighty God through the blood of His only Son. Day, when I was saved.
Thank you, Lord Jesus.
