Wow....I mean genuinely wow!
What a story Spud!
I really hope you have still put this chapter behind you.
Theres a lot in your original post I can relate to here, and I don't dispute what you saw, felt, experienced etc was made up.
Im reasonably knowledgeable on this subject through research done on my travels leading to my awakening of Christianity, and understand somewhat to where you have been.
While I did not go through exactly the same experiences I am pretty sure I went through the same emotions.
Im pretty well read on all the Illuminati stuff, as well as Hollywood, Music Industry, MK Ultra, etc and have seen many very disturbing articles on the subject. Im not boasting about my knowledge but it was a learning curve I believe God put me through to see the dark side in order so that I could rational with the true beauty of everything in Gods world.
Lets say its like you cant have good time unless you experience the bad side, otherwise how do you know what good really is?
PS I still get that pesky high pitch frequencies in my ears from time to time.
Anyway, hope your life stays on track and stay away from mainstream music, it really is filth!